Right Round c:

On Skin Solution : I need suggestion

2011-12-16T11:16:00.001+08:00

Sejak akhir2 ini, saya sering stress akibat kerja hujung tahun yg tiba2 menggunung. Kejar dateline, kejar kpi, kejar takwim. Kesannya, muka pon stress semacam. Bila tengok muka, tiada lagi wajah yang mencerminkan ketenangan, yang tinggal cuma wajah yang miserable dan stress out. Dah la aku stress, tengok muka sendiri lg betambah stress. Baru tengok, blom belek lagi, kalau belek mungkin aku boleh tak kuar bilik sebab stress gila barbie tengok muka sendiri. Kalau la kertas pasir tu boleh menghapuskan segala yg ada atas kulit muka aku ni, memang tanpa hesitate aku akan sental setiap hari. Tp apakan daya.. Sigh

Maka dengan ini, sy memerlukan advise dan suggestion untuk masalah kulit muka ini. Now I'm using Clinique tp nampak ia hanya berkesan untuk 3bulan pertama, dimana muka jadi glowing, reduce pimple spot dan kulit rasa fresh. skrg ia no longer memberi kesan yg sama. I is sads.

I'm planning to go on detox diet. Makan byk sayur, buahbuahan dan minum banyak air untuk detoxify badan. Let's see how it work. And at the same, I need all of u reading this to advise me regarding this matter(walaupon I doubt if there are people reading this). This wl be my azam for 2012 and I'm gonna start early. Help me achieve this people. Sekian.

Please advice :(

Sincerely,
Maisarahwholooonnggforaflawlessskin.

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Slacking

2011-12-13T10:09:00.007+08:00

Dah hampir separuh bulan Disember berlalu, and my entire half month have been so ...... (out of words). im thankful everyday i woke up alive, breathing, kicking, eating and sleeping. besides going to work, i think thats all ive been doing for the past 2weeks. loser much. i had so much fun last month, went off-road atv riding. i was at my happiest state riding through the jungle up and down the hill. so much fun, how i wish i can do it often. how i wish i can do it now now now now now now now now now now now now now now now now now. sigh

sometimes i feel it strange how little things can tickle the hell out of me. i know whats bothering my head right at this moment. its that one little thing, well, the way how it does to my mind body and soul, seems improper to call it 'one little thing' no? i think i shall rename it and from now on, one little thing will be known as *drumrolls* one little elephant. huge and disastrous. but cute.

owh btw i just turned 25 early this month. i feel normal. or precisely, i dont feel anything. and one little elephant has been bothering me since then... i know i must make decision, picking up all the strength, petunjuk and guts(amboi byk perut ko) for this........ praying for the best.

tarabas fight for what he loves. do we really fight for what we love? do u fight for what u love maisarah? do u do u do u do u??

Doodle session #1

2011-11-22T09:47:00.002+08:00

Scene: aisy n me doodling on whiteboard tica bought him for his 3rd birthday..

Aisy: *doodle*doodle*doodle*
Aisy: tiya tolong lukis pak ucu?
Tiya: aisy lukis la
Aisy: tiya tolong laaaa
Tiya: *cair* *doodle pak ucu*
Aisy: pak ucu rambut pacak tau tiya
Tiya: ok *doodle rambut pacak* dah siap!
Aisy: yayyy. Lukis abang adam pulak tiya. Rambut abg adam pacak jugak tiya.
Tiya: ok *doddle* siap! Tiya lukis aisy pulak ok?
Aisy: ok
Tiya: rambut aisy camne?
Aisy: rambut aisy mmmm rambut aisy PACAK KERINTING!
Tiya: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA pacak kerinting *ketawa tanpa henti*

Wishlist Wednesday #1

2011-11-09T23:31:00.001+08:00

2 boxes and stacks of em

i.need.a.bookrack.

Send me away with the words of a love songs..

2011-10-19T11:05:00.005+08:00

i was in muar on monday doing site visit for my pet project with my boss. During the whole journey all we talked about was the glorious and delish muar's food. sate muar, mee bandung, asam pedas u name it.. all i know is i.have.to.eat.delish.muar.food.no.matter.what. and so we arrived earlier than scheduled and we start looking around for lunch. i excitedly texted noy. she replied..

noy pon kat muar.. abah noy baru kejap tadi meninggal...

i felt bad. wrong timing to ask such petty things. bitter. told my boss, we end up having quick lunch at ....cant remember. went to site in muar town. otw back my boss said, jom lah singgah kejap rumah kawan u tu. tanya alamat. was told her house was at tepi jalan along the way to batu pahat. it was raining heavily, patah balik 2 kali to look for the house but to no avail. without proper address theres nothing much that we can do to find her house. takde rezeki nak jumpa. i feel bad up till today. i know my boss felt the same too. i sure gotta find way to say sorry to noy. although it will make no difference :( .

and yesterday, i got another news of a close friend's baby. sad but sure He has a better plan for both of u. ive encountered tad too many heart wrenching news these days. a solid 35yo passed out while jogging leaving behind a wife a young beautiful kids. sad. who would have thought that. ajal maut di tangan tuhan. u r fit today, but sure ull never know when ur day will come. a fren of mine pesan, live life moderately. stick hard to being moderate, insyaAllah. kalau ade benda nak buat, ade benda nak cakap, do it today, for all we know, we might not have tomorrow..

my sincere and hearfelt condolonces to noy.
Alfatihah..

U dig? hehehehe

2011-10-12T17:16:00.004+08:00

My fb acc was suspended and locked by fb, cause someone tried to log into mine yesterday. 3trials and then the person gave up on it. and today i got aneh msgs.....

..... i just cant help but to smile and giggle and then smile again. kelakar. people seems to know me more than i know myself.

Mamamia!

2011-09-11T00:24:00.003+08:00

the movie is just awesome. its definitely my happy movie. smiling and singing along all the way through. love love this movie. sila tengok kalau belum tengok atau baru tengok separuh (cough!). im so gonna find the dvd!

"Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture

And save it from the funny tricks of time

Slipping through my fingers.. "

Hearts in the hand of another heart and in God’s hand are all hearts

2011-09-08T14:19:00.004+08:00

Let You Go

Let you go and set you free
Free
Free to be
from me.
Let it lie
Fly away.
Forever more
See the day
Close the door.
Forget the way I cling to you.
Forget the love I bring to you.
Happy happy you and me?
Let you go and let you be
Happy happy you and she
If that sets your happy free.
Follow the light. Swallow the dreams.
Keep the songs. Keep the we.
Hold it in your heart for me.

- Written by Anna V. Williams at Age 14

kecik2 dah pandai tulis such a beautiful and meaningful poem..

*title from sami yusof's song: healing. SILA DENGAR.

When I was (not so) little

2011-08-23T03:43:00.003+08:00

*Updated*

When I was in form 3, among all the subjects, I like geography the most(besides basketball). Basically because I like reading facts and general knowledge. And I like analyzing maps. And most importantly I like the teacher. Pn Kamelawati*. I can still vividly imagining the classroom setting back then. When its geography-time, the whole class will move forward, cramping the whole 6/7rows into 3rows. I was in the front row obviosly because I was such a shortay back then, seated next to Jerry who annoyingly reads dictionary all the time, but I like him tho, he is a genius and we were deskmate for 3years! Until I left for asrama booo.

Back to my geography teacher, she's really one of a kind. She will sit the nearest to the front row and make sure everyone listen to her while she's teaching cause she aint gonna repeat what she just said. And amazingly everyone listened. My class was known to be the noisiest class ever, the classroom was at the end of the buiding, and the noise can get up to the principal's office which was at the other end of the building. It was like a whole nine yards away I'm telling ya. So getting us to shut our mouth up is a huge achievement to the teachers. Lim Ah Ho always failed this. Mihihihi

Back to my geography teacher, she rarely writes on the blackboard, she'll just sit and talk and we'll just listen. She'll pass around xerox copies of notes and we willdo exercise together. our F1 science teacher, Mr Muhid l.o.v.e.s writing on the blackboard so much he'll make us copy everything he chalked on the board for the whole period no I'm not kidding and no we are not that rajin. but of coz we had to copy each others notes when he said he wanted to semak our notebook booo.

What I really adore about my geography teacher is her passion and determination to teach us all. She had something wrong with her voicebox so she can't talk like normal teachers. She has problem vocalizing her vocals out(?), thus, she talks like she's whispering. And so to makesure the entire class are able to hear to what she said, she had to scream her lungs out and still the whispering voice came out. Just a little stronger in volume. Imagine us having sorethroat. Talking was such a pain in the ass lol in the throat of course what more screaming and shouting. 5days per week 5class per day. Imagine her now. Who would have been that strong??

I don't know where Pn Kamelawati teach right now, wherever u are, Pn Kamelawati, I hope u are doing well. May God grant her with a healthy and happy life with her family. And May Allah bless such a kind teacher/person like you :)

Credit to ayu n idayu the editor.

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At the end of the day, its the durian that count??!?

2011-07-25T09:23:00.005+08:00

*updated*

Naaah, count your blessing.

Its annoying when people keep seeing things negatively. I've come to the point that I can't tolerate people who are paranoid over little things. Get what I mean? Like a friend said, kalau kau takde kawan, jangan halang org lain berkawan. I always keep that in mind. I've lost few friends before and I don't wanna lose any now lg2 sebab benda kecik2. Negativity tu dtg dari syaitan, they always want us to see things negatively, instead of seeing it in a proper jalan yg lurus and nampak hikmah2 disebalik kejadian. Ill sit here and zipped off all churping for a while. Its just becoming too sickening bila semua benda di interprete negatively. Now where's my freedom of speech? Can I have a rally now?? Muahahaha. Freedom is freedom but there's always limit to everything. And I'm aware of my limit. (I'm saying this not that like I am always positive all the time, i have PMS too tehehehe).

Please put your trust on people close around you. And remember action speak louder than words. Its normal to be negative sometimes, just don't let the negativity control you. Be positive, it'll make us all a happier person inside out. Now, think and take control of ourself. Like an adult.

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6months

2011-07-01T13:38:00.006+08:00

its july. 6months has passed us by, 6months to go till its the end of the year 2011. im not in my best condition now, always on the move, i think i need to start taking in vitamins and all to keep up with the work challenge (exxagerate) im facing right now. i spend time on the field/site a lot these days. my skin got tanned a bit, my body got fat a bit. this week ive been super crappy super masuk angin super sumbat super lazy and super tired too. i like the pressure i got frm my work sometime as it keeps myself busy and distract me frm thinking about unnecessary things, but when its too much i get all fed up, macam dudddeee gimme a break. ayat nak sedap je padahal bos ko tuan haji nak dude dude dgn dia. my boss is a great person, i always look up to him, he's a pensioner working on contract basis now and i am impressed on how he keep himself always energetic and always on the go. driving frm here to kemaman is like kacang thing for him, he can always drive there on a day trip, and the next day he'll be in the office. but usually he'll spend the night there with her momma, and leave me balik sorg2 with the driver cause i got no momma in kemaman me momma is in perak. patut la dia beria suh i pindah kemaman cause we'll be going there a lot. i knew i should have go cause living here in serdang hq means i(we) got to handle not only project kemaman but .... argh mals nak mention nnti stress.

the shitbrix now is that, i am currently having this syndrom when u see work u wanna puke blood already. cam muak camtu. cam ko suka gila makan sotong hari2 makan sotong, 2 bulan makan sotong punya la suka kat sotong, pastu tetiba satu hari ko takleh tgk walaupon bayang2 sotong sebab bila ko nampak even bayang2 sotong ko rasa nak muntah apatah lagi bila nampak sotong betul. mere exxageration but yeah thats about it. so ive been infected with this syndrom since monday im so pissed with myself. i ve been wanting to do something else, memancing ke, panjat gunung kinabalu ke, anything la yg not work related. but yeah pffft here i am in the office with all the negative vibe eg lost, crappy, shitty dan semua yg sewaktu dengannya. im in love-hate relationship with myself now.

and so ive made up my mind, ill give myself 6months ~~to get myself a new job~~ to adapt with my current job and try to control the pressure stress and expectation(the hardest part), and if I cant make it happen in this 6months, its time to move on and find a new job. I don’t wanna go back home all stressed out, feeling crappy and shitty every once in a while. i love what im doing its just that the pressure is ...... killing me.. softly.. ive been abandoning my running shoes n my bnw bike for the past 2 months i tell ya and im not happy with it. totally not happy with it. and some lil thing happening on the side doesnt make me happy at all. i feel like shooting ppl with senapang patah.

if i have a superpower all i wanna do now is to get my brain out of my head and my hati, jantung out of my chest, wash them bersih2, put em back into where they were. and start anew! sigh how i wish that is possible. i need my working mojo back. and some happy thought and happy feeling from the inside.

Dear The One Up Above, bless me guide me love me. Show me the right path and the right thing to do and the right person too, cause obviously im nothing without You.

Sampai Syurga

2011-05-31T13:29:00.003+08:00

hai saya di ofis baru sekarang. nak tulis byk benda tapi tak punya banyak masa. hujung minggu baru ni baru ada masa sikit nak jadi ulat buku. i went to my uncle's place and buried myself with books he left behind sobs. managed to finish 3 books im so impressed with myself cause i have yet to finish reading even one for the past two months boo you. so let me start with this one book its so interesting, cover to cover in less than 2hrs. written by Said Nursi - A Guide For Woman

Heres the snippets which i found very meaningful.

"Happy the man who in order not to lose his companion of eternity, copies his righteous wife and so becomes righteous himself. And happy the woman who, seeing her husband to be pious, adheres to religion herself so as not to lose her everlasting friend and companion."

" Unhappy the man who follows his wife in sin, does not try to make her give it up, but joins her. And unhappy the woman who, seeing her husband's sinfulness, follows him in another way. And alas for the wife and husband who assist one another in throwing each other into the fire. That is, who encourage one another to embrace the evils of civilization."

Haaaa..... sekarang boleh pilih.. nak kawan sampai syurga ke kat dunia je? hukhukhuk

The Memories Remain

2011-04-24T22:57:00.005+08:00

yes, i am a sucker for romantics songs T_T tp masih rockstar!

p/s: the last time i checked, this video is no longer available on youtube.

Too sick to work today, i end up *mengoceh.

2011-04-22T10:17:00.008+08:00

Apa2 saja yang melibatkan dua pihak(atau lebih), kalau hanya satu pihak je yang bergerak berusaha, satu lagi buat dunno, nak tak nak (padahal at first semangat) tidak akan memberikan apa2 hasil. The effort must come form both sides, if u wanna see hasil. Kalau reluctant nak put on effort, go ahead and dream, get excited about this and that, dreams will just be dreams, no hasil. It takes two to tango. Sekian.

*mengoceh = babbling. thanks google translate i learn new word today! :)

p/s: this has nothing to do w bicycle.

Bacaan Kongsi-Kongsian

2011-04-21T11:55:00.003+08:00

Apa itu ikhtilat?

Ikhtilat bermaksud pergaulan dalam Bahasa Melayu yang berasal dari kata dasar khalata iaitu bercampur. Percampuran ini boleh berlaku di kalangan manusia, haiwan atau benda.

Ulama Fiqh mendefinisikan pergaulan sebagai satu keadaan apabila lelaki dan perempuan ajnabi bertemu (melebihi dua orang) di suatu tempat dan berlaku interaksi antara mereka. Interaksi yang berlaku mungkin berupa percakapan, pandangan atau isyarat yang boleh difahami. Jika ia melibatkan dua orang sahaja, maka ia diklasifikasikan sebagai khalwat.

Ikhtilat boleh berlaku di mana-mana tempat samada secara terancang atau tidak.

Hukum Asal

Pada dasarnya, tidak terdapat sebarang hukum bagi pergaulan yang jelas. Meskipun terdapat beberapa pendapat yang mengatakan ianya tidak haram malah harus, namun berdasarkan dalil-dalil yang bakal dikemukakan, adalah jelas bahawa hukumnya adalah tetap haram. Ini juga kerana pandangan ini disokong oleh majoriti ulama fuqaha, dan ahli hadith.

Dalil-Dalil

Pengharaman pergaulan antara lelaki dan perempuan meskipun tidak terdapat satu nas yang qatie (jelas), namun pengharamannya hanya berasaskan kepada hukum lain yang pada asalnya dikhususkan bagi kaum wanita kerana dalam hukum-hukum tersebut terdapat unsur-unsur pergaulan antara perempuan dan lelaki ajnabi. Oleh itu, nas-nas tersebut boleh dijadikan sebagai petunjuk pengharaman pergaulan. Hukum-hukum yang dimaksudkan ialah larangan berkhalwat dan musafir tanpa mahram, solat berjemaah di masjid bagi wanita, hukum jihad bagi wanita-wanita, hukum solat Jumaat bagi wanita dan beberapa hukum-hakam yang dikhususkan untuk wanita.

Pemakaian Urf dan Maslahah dalam Penentuan Hukum Pergaulan

Dalam konteks persoalan berkaitan pergaulan antara lelaki dan perempuan di Malaysia, meskipun hukum asalnya adalah haram seperti mana yang telah dihujahkan sebelum ini [rujuk perbincangan tentang hukum asal pergaulan], namun apabila dilihat dari sudut pendekatan pemakaian uruf masyarakat di Malaysia, ternyata beberapa kelonggaran tetap wujud seiring dengan prinsip iaitu mengambilkira suasana setempat dan semasa di Malaysia. Persoalan yang turut perlu dipertimbangkan contohnya:

Kaum wanita turut keluar mencari rezeki dengan bekerja, malahan wanita di Malaysia kini hampir seimbang dominasi peratusan mereka yang bekerja dengan lelaki
Persoalan tentang pergaulan antara lelaki dan perempuan semasa belajar. Di universiti, keadaan sama berlaku.

Pengecualian Bagi Hukum Asal

Unsur Darurat

Pergaulan perempuan dan lelaki ajnabi yang dikategorikan sebagai darurat atas tujuan memberikan perlindungan atau menyelamatkan perempuan itu daripada bahaya adalah diharuskan dengan syarat tidak ada tujuan-tujuan lain. Hukum ini adalah satu pengecualian dari hukumnya yang asal iaitu haram.

Apabila Wujud Keperluan atau Hajat

Muamalat Maliyyah (urusan harta)
Perempuan dibenarkan bergaul dengan lelaki dalam urusan yang melibatkan harta seperti jual beli atau lain-lain transaksi. Ini adalah kerana urusan sebegini memerlukan interaksi antara dua pihak sebelum berlaku aqad.

Penyaksian (urusan mahkamah)
Penyaksian wanita diterima syara. Di dalam kes-kes tertentu seperti dalam kes harta dan berkaitan.

Urusan kerja
Wanita diharuskan keluar rumah untuk bekerja dengan izin suami atau penjaganya. Urusan kerja kebiasaannya melibatkan pergaulan wanita dengan lelaki. Tambahan pula bilangan tempat kerja yang mengasingkan antara lelaki dan perempuan secara total amat terhad.

Melayani tetamu
Harus bagi seorang wanita melayani tetamunya dengan syarat ia mestilah ditemani oleh suami atau mahramnya. Ini kerana, kewujudan suami atau mahramnya untuk mengelakkan berlakunya 'khalwah' (bersunyi-sunyian) antara seseorang wanita dan tetamunya. Begitu juga, harus bagi seseorang wanita untuk makan bersama tetamunya dengan kehadiran suami atau mahramnya bagi menjaga hak-hak tetamu.

Keperluan lain yang tidak bertentangan dengan syariat
Oleh itu pergaulan yang berlaku contohnya dalam kenderaan awam dibolehkan atas alasan ianya adalah keperluan yang mendesak. Namun demikian, keharusan ini tertakluk kepada syarat perempuan itu keluar rumah bukan untuk tujuan yang tidak syarie seperti untuk berpoya-poya. Ia mestilah bertujuan syarie seperti bekerja untuk menyara diri atau keluarga, menziarahi keluarga, pesakit dan sebagainya. Begitu juga keadaannya jika seseorang wanita perlu ke tempat-tempat awam seperti stesen bas, keretapi, pasaraya dan sebagainya.

Pergaulan menurut kebiasaan adat dalam majlis-majlis

Pergaulan antara lelaki dan perempuan di dalam majlis-majlis keramaian yang tidak bertentangan dengan syarak seperti kenduri kendara atau majlis-majlis keraian, ziarah keluarga atau jiran serta sahabat, melayan tetamu dan sebagainya dibolehkan.

Pergaulan semasa belajar

Umum mengetahui bahawa situasi keadaan di Malaysia di mana semua rakyatnya berhak untuk mendapatkan pendidikan. Walaubagaimanapun, mungkin timbul dalam usaha menuntut ilmu ini, persoalan tentang pergaulan yang mungkin wujud semasa proses pembelajaran tersebut. Sebagai pelajar sudah tentu akan wujud bentuk komunikasi antara rakan sekelas seperti bertanya soalan, study group dan tugasan secara berkumpulan dan sebagainya. Semua ini jelas menunjukkan betapa pergaulan tidak dapat dielakkan semasa proses pembelajaran.

Adab-Adab Ikhtilat dalam Islam

Tidak bersentuhan antara perempuan dan lelaki ajnabi.
Tidak melihat perempuan atau lelaki secara mengamati dan menaikkan syahwat.
Memelihara aurat dan kehormatan. Aurat lelaki adalah antara lutut dan pusat manakala aurat perempuan adalah seluruh tubuh badan kecuali muka dan tangan.
Tidak mengeluarkan kata-kata keji, lucah atau menunjukkan tingkahlaku yang mendorong kepada melakukan maksiat.
Tidak berdua-duaan terutama di tempat sunyi dan gelap.

thank you miss wabit.

Renung renungkan dan selamat beramal! :)

Inflation Kit

2011-04-15T13:35:00.011+08:00

Its been a while since i last write something on my blog. the previous entries seem pseudo to me. what is a blogpost if it consists only of one sentence/picture? blerghhh bummer. dalam kata lain, entry malas, tapi nak buat entry jugak, supaya ada update. the consecutive four months have been hectic, time flies so fast(cliche). 2011 has been nice to me so far. kadang2 out of breath, kadang2 hilang punca. normal la tu, nama pon liku liku kehidupan.

This month will be my final month working in this department. Next month onwards (insyaAllah) ill be joining the MTBIC community. new office, new colleague, new boss(garang okay, boss skrg baik sgt). sad to leave the people here. padahal office baru bawah bukit je. hehe. tp stillllll. i was running away gila2 from this dept(due to some personal reason lol) but end up being there jugak. sheeesss. redha je lah. hadapi kenyataan dgn tabah.

Selepas mendapat berita itu, hidup saya menjadi kelam dan serabut, i end up being stressful (exxagerate). takdelah serabut sgt tp kadang2 serabut lalu emo. kesian orang yg menjadi mangsa. i feel bad. maka, maafkanlah saya di atas kelampiasan saya. tp macam sorang je yg kena lampiasan emosi tersebut muahahaha. dgn org lain, saya akan budget macho dan budget cool, like yo im so cool i no cry yo. hehe

emmm tp saya rasa mangsa tak baca kot blog ni. jadi mengapa atas dunia kau tulis ucapan mintak maaf di sini maisarah?!?! pfffttt bummer in the house.

My Cotton Candy?

2011-04-13T20:23:00.008+08:00

blossom white wall door very yellow me no likey but no strenght to cat

tahun ni tema suci, semua nak kaler putih :)

mewmew :)

the unfinished bussiness :(

tema bilik: cotton candy (bajet cute) hehe

still in need of a book rack n a bed

unable to accomplish mission on time due to budget constraint :(

Whats the story, morning glory?

2011-04-01T09:39:00.003+08:00

Self,

look at what u have been blessed with. think. and be grateful!

still finding my way..

baju pengapit courtesy of the newly-wed Dee. love love.

Lovely. Sobs.

2011-03-23T15:39:00.003+08:00

" ...love is never for recognition, nor reciprocation, but always a total dedication to the other person’s happiness, sometimes, most times, at the cost of your own... " - Just Khairi

Baca sampai habis please. Beautiful.

Sedetik Lebih

2011-03-09T10:33:00.001+08:00

Now i know why Mallissa loves Anuar Zain so much.

Listening to: Teman Terulung - Anuar Zain

Ayat Power #1

2011-02-08T08:51:00.006+08:00

We become so occupied with this world that we easily forget He is watching our every move. - Igotitcovered.org

my bicycle story

2011-02-06T10:00:00.000+08:00

i rode my first bike when i was 2/3 years old. n it was a tricycle. basikal mardiana (1st sister) yang diperturunkan kepada adik2 sehingga adik ke lima lahir. full-steel red n black in color. cute n tahan lasak. tapi sekarang basikal tu dah hilang. kena curi. kalau ada lagi, sure elok lagi dan boleh diturunkan kepada adam n aisy.
kemudian, bila darjah dua, kalau tak silap, dad bought us new bike. mine was saiz sederhana. tapi kena pakai roda masa mula2 sebab basikal tu tinggi. kaler hijau n hitam. bila dah lama2 siket, bukak roda dan boleh bawak basikal lepas tangan ok. gangstahhhh
pastu sebab semua orang dah ade basikal, masa weekend abah ajak ride, masuk kg sg ramal. kat ayer tawar. bukan kg sg ramal kajang hehe. reason being, kat situ traffic tak heavy(heavy pulak traffic kat ayer tawar lol), pastu ade bukit bukit jadi bila turun bukit naik basikal lepas tangan laju2 terus boleh jadi happy. yay!
i remember basikal abah ade raga bawak baby kat belakang. masa tu amin baby lagi, no bike suit him. takkan nak ride bawak tricycle. mestila kena tinggal jauh2 hahaha.
masa darjah enam start tuition untuk upsr n i ride my bike to the auntie's place, masa tu masih pakai basikal hijau hitam. sebab i kan pendek so macam tak tinggi2 pon cane nak beli basikal tinggi zzz
masuk form 1, i took over mallissa's bike (tinggi okay) sebab dia masuk asrama n no longer stays in the house. kaler purple n black tp masa tu tak pegi mana2 lagi naik basikal sbb pegi sekolah naik bas. kadang2 pegi koko hari sabtu naik bike. tp masa form 1 gangstahh mane pegi koko. ari sabtu ape barang pegi sekolah.
form 2 and form 3 start naik basikal pegi tuition n koko. my bike partner back then was kenny wong. kitorg rumah dekat2. selalu singgah umah dia sebelum berlepas untuk tuition kat pekan ayer tawar. nak besiap dah la lama kenny ni. bila sampai umah dia selalu tak mandi lagi la baru pas makan la. tepaksa layan cd dulu (bapak dia tokey cd cetak rompak ayer tawar). mak dia pon selamba je layan siap suh minum coke takpun air kotak. he is a lawyer now btw.
pastu sampai tuition gi kedai depan pusat tuition dulu. makan aiskrim dulu. kang setengah jam start tuition turun lagi gi kedai. pastu rehat 15minit pastu naik balik. kang habis tuition lepak lagi kat kedai depan. ntah bila belaja nye ntah asyik turun gi kedai je.
disebabkan kitorg org kampung, membesar di pekan kecil, jadi kami tiada shopping mall untuk hang out lepas sekolah, atau ketika cuti. jadi kami memilih jalan yg cerah dengan selalu membuat majlis main badminton takpon main basketball. kumpul duit ramai2 book court kat dewan kutien. main indoors ramai2. naik basikal ke court ramai2. memang multiracial. tp happppyyy je. sumpah happy masa form3.
kemudian masuk asrama berakhirlah kisah basikal dan kisah happy. booooo tak suka asrama. habis spm amik lesen apa barang naik basikal sunburn uollss lolololol.

dan sekarang... setelah 7tahun tidak mengayuh... saya mengumumkan..

bnw hehh

my weekend was...

2011-02-01T00:20:00.003+08:00

had pyjamas party n play tons of games with em cousins. my cousins all kiddies tp who cares i still had fun n i hope they had their fair shares too. happy to see their smiling face again and again. no one can replace the dad's love for sure, but i hope i can help em ease what they are going through now. n i see they are keeping up good. strong kids!

atiyaa n tolha

Tolha is the youngest. we called him Tolly Tolha pastu tukar jadi Encik Burung sebab he talks alot n his voice is penyek n macam burung. we love teasing him sampai muka dia merah, sampai dia jerit tayaaaahhhhlaaaaa hahahaha comel. malam before we went to bed, i asked him again, Tolha nak tido dgn acu n atiyaa ke nak tido dgn bonda? dia cakap, nak tido dgn acu mmm ok tuka lah nak tido dgn bonda. the next morning he came knocking on the door pastu naik atas katil n sambung tidur in between me n atiyaa. haih so cute selamat kene picit dgn aku.

basit-atiyaa-ayyash. masa kitorg main game motion pictures. kelaka gila. all pics taken by atiyaa n ayyash. nnti bila free ill upload the motion pictures.

how can u not love this tiny bitz bersuara burung?

baru bangun from nap terus kene tease lol pastu kene pujuk haha

They have grown so big.

2011-01-25T18:02:00.004+08:00

Tiya: Aisy, mane pegi ikan wii, nape tinggal sikit?
Aisy: Ikan wii takde.
Tiya: Ikan wii pegi mane?
Aisy: Adam bg minum susu.
Tiya: Hahhh? Ikan mane boleh minum susu??!!? Mak betul ke?
Emak: Betul le. Adam bg susu kambing kat ikan. Habis sume mati.
Adam: Manade. Manade. *lari

*cricket

2011-01-22T20:54:00.007+08:00

Kalau orang dah tak cakap dgn kita, takkan kita nak paksa dia cakap jugak kan? Hmmm.

Dalam hati kita, kita je yang tahu, dalam hati dia, dia je yang tahu (pepatah wth?)

Yang pasti, Dia tahu semuuuaaaaaaa.

Cliche

2011-01-14T15:57:00.005+08:00

January has been hectic. But I am enjoying every second of it, a good distraction. Datelines keep me going. Bila kerja takde dateline or very routine, I seemed to be in a very slow pace mode. Macam you got no pressure whatsoever on the task, so why rush? Hehehe. (I procastinate a lot I know). Hmmm like I always wonder why people need to drive like rempits on a Sunday. Like, come on! Its sundayyyy! Just enjoy the ride. Drive la slow2, hirup udara segar, enjoy the pemandangan, tis the moment. Old-school I know, but believe me u gonna appreciate life more this way. Zeriouzly.

One thing not good is I’ve been ignoring my running shoes and my bike for a week now. No likey :( Pastu makan tak nak sikit plak kan? Haha. Nasib la pepandai la cover balik pasni. Back to the point, new year resolution. Walaupon lambat, nak jugak tulis kat blog.

To save up money CONSTANTLY. Huhu. It’s like every year punya resolution yg tak penah tercapai due to my endless ~~needs~~ wants. Ive been working for 2years plus now. Kalau la every month simpan sikit2, I would have end up with a macbook pro nipis melayang by now. Damn you shopping malls! Jadi tahun ini, sila menabung constantly. Like u never know what’s gonna happen to you in the future, no? kena la beringat kan, sekali tiba2 ditamatkan perkhidmatan ke haaa sapa nak tanggung kau, maisarah? #notetoself
To go on a backpack trip at least once this year. Hummm. I miss doing this a lot. Tp lepas Mallissa insists me to watch this film, I was taken aback gak la. Scary merry okay. Tp still i hope I’ll get to find one (or more) good companion to go with me. Shitz baru cakap nak menabung pastu nak backpack trip cane? Zzz. The key is please learn how to manage your financial, maisarah. Talk to AKPK. #notetoself

That’s it. 2 cukup lah. Cause u don’t need a new year to start a new resolution kan? I hope I’ll be a better person inside out, and learn on making every new day a better day. And yeah I haven’t blog about my bike yet, coming right up after I hit my dateline. Can’t wait to show (off) my bike cause…. he is so handsome. Hahaha sekian.

picture from google

Listening to: Kau Di Hatiku – Zainal Abidin OST Tarzan (I love this song so much when I have kids, I’ll sing this song to them everyday. Nasib la. Your mummy is awesome like dat. haha)

Welcoming 2011

2011-01-06T13:05:00.002+08:00

gloomy thursday. unproductive. i am in the office, but i know my heart, my brain and my soul arent here with me. sigh. dont know why am i feeling this way. not a good way to welcome a new year nay?

Anyway, may we have a great year ahead!

Butthurt anyone? *updated

2011-01-04T00:03:00.005+08:00

announcing the arrival of me loveee :)

ermm actually this isnt a post about my BnW, (ill talk more bout it later). this is a specially dedicated post to thank the person who has put so much effort, passion and patient(sorry huhu) towards making my dream comes true. owe u big time and i cant thank u enough :)

this made me one happpy little tiger c:

Now back to the title, butthurt * and back pain anyone??? lol

wake up call part deux

2010-12-31T08:49:00.003+08:00

why wake up call? because we never know when our time will come. we will never know whats gonna happen next. jadi, kena bersedia setiap masa. its a wake up call for me the whole family, when The One took pakju to be with Him. takde tanda2 apa2 pon, takde sakit2, he was in a meeting, and 5hours later, dah selamat dikebumikan. kita nnti entah macamana. kadang2 kita(baca:saya) tak sedar, lalai dengan dunia. semua org wish for a long life, tp who are we to decide, no? its all written. Read this.

"live your life as you pleased, but most importantly, as He pleased"-Quote.

Wake Up Call Part 1

2010-12-25T23:51:00.007+08:00

jumaat lepas, i was on leave, tengah siap2 nak balik, sambil tunggu call from office. and then the phone rang, no it wasnt my office calling, it was emak instead. i was breathless when she said, tak payah balik - Pak Ju dah takde, mak dgn abah nak datang sana. i was like, this cant be true, please say it isnt so. The trembling voice of emak, made me believe her words. she couldnt talk anymore thus she sms-ed asking me to contact Mak Njang Kaseh, Pak Ju's wife. jantung macam nak pecah.

i called Pak Ju's secretary instead, and she break the news to me when i said i am his niece. jenazah was sent to Hosp Selayang, and will be buried at tanah perkuburan kg sg pusu, next to UIA Gombak, his office. i was shaking, driving my way to gombak, after zuhur, after being told that solat jenazah will take place at masjid UIA after asar prayer. i still couldnt believe all this happening, as evthing happened so fast. It was heart-wrenching to receive the passing of close family as this is the first one since arwah tok meninggal tahun 2004, which is 6 years back.

sampai kat masjid UIA, just minutes before azan asar. masa tu jenazah belum sampai n i dont see any familiar faces of family members just yet. lepas solat asar, imam buat pengumuman, mintak semua makmum tunggu sekejap untuk solat jenazah. i was at the first floor(untuk makmum perempuan) selepas beberapa minit, diorang usung keranda jenazah. tuhan je tahu masa tu perasaan tengok diorg bawak jenazah. and so i proceed solat jenazah sekali dgn imam n makmum lain. ramai sgt orang, dekat 5-6ratus jugak. first time solatkan jenazah ahli keluarga sendiri, i couldnt stop the tears from falling. sedih sangat2.

turun bawah i saw cik din coming frm kuantan. pegi greet, and i keep receiving calls from emak pak lang, ayong n anyah. tanya update. cari mak njang kaseh tapi tak jumpa2. Diorg tunggu Tok Ki and Opah datang dan terus nak proceed ke tanah perkuburan. dalam 45 minit camtu, Tokki, Opah, pak lang, pak uda, mak long, mak n abah sampai. masa ni baru jumpa mak njang. diorg bukak keranda untuk tengok jenazah arwah for the last time. semua adik beradik and anak2 tengok n kiss arwah for the last time. n then mak njang cakap dekat atiyaa(pak ju's only daughter), do u want to kiss ur ayah for the last time?? atiyaa geleng2. tp tak nangis langsung. thank God Alhamdulillah i got the chance to see him for the last time n kiss him on the forehead. Solat jenazah sekali lagi, kemudian ke kubur untuk pengebumian.

...bersambung

** Pak Ju (Ahmad Marzuki bin Hj Zainudin) adik emak, 50 tahun, passed away while was on a meeting in his office at UIA gombak. He left behind, beloved wife, Mak Njang Kaseh, 5 boys and a princess, and the rest of the family. Al-Fatihah.

Anger management 101 #1

2010-12-23T10:03:00.006+08:00

I've been workin here since 2008. perlu ke nak surat akuan kerja lebih dari 30hr untuk clearkan my claim? and u only asked for that after a one-frigging-month process? shdfiuhfdvbldkncvoadgvodualsmdhakalsfhej7p34ekldn2nkdcn;a

note to self: kalau ada event yg need you to splurge (alot) of money, buat advance(one month before cause u never know when u gonna get them anyhow), never use up your tak-penuh-penuh-tabung-basikal again. or any other tabung in that matter.

now whos gonna pay for the chances ive missed due to your so called ISO crappucino piawaian sirim buttever like i care tp still lambat boooo you.

Now, someone please buy me punching bag n boxing gloves. Pronto!

When i was little

2010-12-15T13:40:00.002+08:00

masa kecil2, saya bukanlah seorg budak kecil yang pandai setiap tahun dapat no 1 dalam kelas macam kakak saya. saya selalu dapat no 3 je sebab ade sorg budak gemuk(dzammin) selalu dapat no 1, dgn seorg budak kurus (khadijah noh) dapat no 2. ataupun tebalik2 gitulah. saya kekal ditangga ke 3 sampai darjah enam uolls. tegar tak tegar? takde improvement langsung pfft haha. bila balik kampung opah tanye dapat nombor berapa? saya jawab, nombor 3. opah: cehh nombor 3, taik kuda! haha

tp sebagai kanak2 yang aktif, saya rasa saya tak penah kesah dapat nombor berapa. kesah la gak sket2 tp like bialah i was a happy kid back then. main je keje. main masuk hutan getah depan umah cari ubi kayu lah (masa tu kawan dengan kembar 3 -2laki 1 gegirl and venu). seronok kot. macam2. seingat saya, tak penah main dgn kakak2 saya, sebab umur jauh beza (kot?). diorg girlish tak main la main under the hot sun nih. haha. seronok jadi kanak2 hari2 happy. saya rasa saya hari2 happy sampai lah saya masuk asrama f4. homesick bai. klaka. sket2 tepon mak nanges nak balik. tp itu bukan motif cerita ni skrg(malu). sila kembali ke pangkal jalan zzzz

seingat saya, achievement paling besar masa saya kecik2 dulu ialah, pada umur sepuluh tahun, saya telah menanam sepohon pokok betik di depan umah. biji betik tu rendam dulu sampai keluar tunas, kemudian agak2 dah steady pokok tu dipindahkan ke depan umah. darjah empat kan start belaja sains. tanam pokok kacang hijau magic skali keluar pokok taugeh. hahaha. jadi mungkin pengaruh pelajaran. pokok betik yang kecil itu kemudian di jaga ibarat menatang minyak yang penuh. first baby mestila hover. selang beberapa bulan kemudian, dia pon besar dan mula mengeluarkan hasil = buah betik. takde magic2. pastu pokok dia rendah, petik dengan tangan je yay. (buah betik ni spesis yang kecik2 tu, yang sorang makan satu bijik tu, exoticaa ke ape nama dia) masa tu kagum dgn diri sendiri. hehe habis terbaik la pencapaian, sebab sekeluarga boleh makan buah betik, bagi dekat mak angkat merangkap mak mengaji, hanta balik kampung umah tok. bangga. hehe. pokok betik sy ni lain sket sebab dia tumbuh senget macam pokok kelapa tepi pantai yang org boleh duduk kat batang pokok tu. tp takdelah gi duduk kat situ patah 2 kang nanges. hahaha.

pokok betikku yang senget

setelah beberapa bulan megeluarkan hasil yang lumayan, pada satu hari hujan turun dengan lebat, angin kencang. bila habis hujan bukak pintu tengok2 pokok betik dah terbelah dua. wuaaaaa sedih gila. mungkin sebab dia senget, tak stabil kena ribut terus terbalik. maka, tamatlah riwayat pokok pertama saya. mind the bad drawing, saya buta lukisan.

sekian sampai di sini sajalah karangan pencapaian terbaik semasa saya kanak kanak.

p/s: kelaka bila baca post sebelum ni. heuheu sampai dapat sms, u dah nak kawen ke? muahahaha. taklah taknak kawen lagi. nnti dah besar siket matang siket banyak duit siket jodoh tiba kawen la. skrg kecik lagi mana boleh kawen. budak baru abis spm ingat sy baru form 4 pffttt -___-

Things were different yesterday..

2010-12-12T23:25:00.007+08:00

kadang-kadang, saya rasa saya kuat, boleh ke sana sini sendiri, boleh hadapi hari2 dengan senyuman, berlari sekuat hati, berjalan tanpa henti.

kadang-kadang, saya rasa saya kuat, bila termimpi malam tak lagi menangisi, bila hati tak lagi kuat mencemburui, bila sendiri tapi tetap meyakini.

kadang-kadang, saya rasa saya tak kuat. lemah. sedih :(

itulah namanya manusia. manusia bernama maisarah. bila rasa kuat, saya happy. seronok bila tengok org2 famili gembira. seronok tengok orang lain bahagia. seronok bila keluarga dan kawan2 ade bersama. susah senang ada. tp saya tetap manusia biasa. ada masa kuat perkasa, ada masa lemah tak bermaya. bila rasa lemah, sedih, letih, cepat2 berlari, cepat2 senyum, cepat2 cari alasan untuk buat orang gembira, and that made myself feel awesome again. in many ways, it helps. in not so many ways, well, tangisan dalam senyuman? Boo you (yes i booed myself when i do that) I try to be positive most of the time. and that did the job (pat own back)

Lumrahnye begitulah, i cant deny the fact that i am gonna need 'the man' to come along, to cheer me up, pendamping sampai ke akhir hayat(sampai syurga insyaAllah), pembimbing bila terlupa, ketua rumah tangga, dan paling penting, the one i would trust to be 'the father' to my kids, to teach and to guide them through. and of course we are going to do it together. something i would surely cherish. hehe. dalam Quran pun ade sebut, manusia dijadikan berpasang-pasangan. begitulah lumrahnya. i can wait. i will surely wait for the time to come. bila baca buku Hidayah, karangan tok guru nik aziz, (buku ni pasal tafsiran quran), dia highlight on how to be a better Muslim, a better person inside out. dengan cara berasaskan Islam. bila kita ikut, akan rasa indah dan bahagia. kadang2 we misused the 'normality' which is not normal pon in islamic way, and take things too easily. little things always do wonders. be it good little thing or badddd little things.

i am blessed, i learn a lot of new things in life, everyday. and i learn a lot of love too. i learn how to appreciate what i have in life, instead of dreaming over what i dont have. all i can say is, im done partying, im done dating, im done with late night movies, suffice to say, ive had enough of fun(such kind of fun, but im dying for more fun yay). AND i cherished every moment of it. but, u cant live with that for the whole of yourlife, no? this time around its going to be serious bussiness mang. ill just go slow, enjoying every sip of my coffee, having fun riding slow :) and all i am wishing for, is a good companion, yang telah ditentukan tuhan. If He you put to it, He'll definitely put you through it. saya percaya itu. time will tell. hehe

Thus, for the upcoming new year, i wish for more happiness, i wanna be happy, i wanna have a joyful 2011/1432H. and i want to be a better person inside out. and to all who has been here in my life, had been here, or will be here anydays, i will definitely cherish and appreciate you guys. for being here in my life. so much. muchos love for everyone!!

It is impossible to lay hands on that which is not predestined for us,
and that which is predestined for us will reach us wherever we are. -Quote

amayyzzinng

2010-12-10T17:03:00.004+08:00

selepas hampir 10 minit type dan backspace, confession: sumpah tak reti nak start camne. i think my english is getting sucker(?) errr suckier(?!!?). ok buttever. that proves how sucks my english is right now. thus, one of my new year resolution wud be, to buy newspaper everyday and READ em. and to read more books. i dont really enjoy reading online news, kurang feel. like to read em printed on the paper. i am so ~~oldies~~ classic liddat. bahaha.

mari kembali ke pangkal jalan.

sebenarnya nak cakap pasal The Amazing Race Asia. everyone shud know by now, the numero uno winner goes to the Richards. as expected. masa tengok the whole series, sebagai rakyat malaysia yang patriotik, i want Khairi and Ethan to win the race. they didnt make it to the final race, tp buttever im still proud of em boys. lantas saya tukar team dan menyokong pasangan michelle and claire. girl power!! gila michelle ni tak gayat langsung lintas bangunan 52 tingkat semalam. kagum gila. kesian tgk hussien, dia mmg tak boleh nak overcome trauma dia masa jatuh main tali masa race kat sri lanka. kena 4hrs penalti. they end up as the 2nd runner-up, though they were the first one to arrive in singapore. tp yelah, dah nasib. actually i dont really like the team cause i dont like it when natasha always like marah2 her dad, tinggi suara sume. tak baik, kena la sabar. but i guess, the pressure is on, kadang2 tak sedar dah termarah bapa sendiri. bila tgk semalam masa they reached the finishing line sedih gila to see how hussein was like so frustrated with himself, the line was something like this, 'im very proud of my daughter' allan: ' are u proud of yourself?' hussein: 'NO'. kemudian dia nangis, pastu natasha calm him down. pastu dua2 nanges. touche' tetiba aku plak yg begenang(hover).

well, whats not to love about the richards, no? hehehe. tall dark handsome. and bald! mula2 tak botak lepas tu race kat mane ntah diorg kena botakkan kepala, i was like wow hensemnye! macam michael skofil!! bila botak terus auto nampak gagah bergaya(macam michael skofil). from the very beginning, i just know they gonna win, diorg tough, pastu chemistry bagus, xde gaduh2 elmo2 lebih2 sgt. what more can i say, they deserve the usd100,000. mintak sket, nak siapkan basikal plis? pastu ade one saying he said(i dont know which richard said this) that catch my ears, siap tulis quote dalam phone takut lupa hehe. "I have fears. And I am here to face them". mantap? YES!

kesimpulannya, teringin nak masuk race camni. nak ajak daddy masuk lah. Maisarah & Shariff. glam! hahaha. tp abah gayat. naik menara kl pon dah rasa nak terkeluar isi perut, camne nak do some limb on bangunan 52 tingkat? jadi adakah Maisarah & Shariff akan mengulangi sejarah Natasha & Hussien dgn mengambil penalti 4jam? muahahaha dream on. im kinda confident my father wont ever compete on such race. jadi nnti bila dah jadi (hot) mummy, nak ajak anak sertai race lah. muahahahah berangan la sampai sudah..

rinduuu lama tak nampak muka (on tv)

now playing: one in a million - neyo.

Happy 24th birthday, self.

2010-12-03T23:53:00.001+08:00

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

You. Me. Us. All of Us.

Goo Goo Dolls - Better Days

mimpi lagi

2010-11-22T17:52:00.003+08:00

di satu malam yg hening, sambil menunggu masa untuk menutup mata, fikiran mula wandering sambil lagu '...picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor... ' berkumandang di dalam otak. lalu terpandang tingkap, 'ahhh lupa pulak nak tutup langsir, kang nyamuk masuk'. lalu bingkas aku bangun menuju ke tingkap, sambil mata memandang ke tempat lain (takut), laju2 langsir ku tarik lalu kembali ke katil. kemudian terpandang pula kamera di dalam almari. lalu terpikir, ada bagusnya kalau aku tolak kamera nih, dan beli sesuatu yang lebih ringan, elegan, tapi function mantop. (sesi berangan bermula) canon s90 ok gak, aritu terbaca review, macam menarik. takdapat d90, s90 pon boleh la kan. asal pantas ringan gamba cantek. yang boleh hangkut masuk handbag. lumix lx5 pon macam ok. tanpa berfikir panjang, aku pon terlelap. (bajet tanpa berfikir panjang terus beli, banyak pule duit muahahaha). kemudian, mimpi menjelma...

saya pegi holiday, naik bas bawak beg purple (rinduuu), kemudian nak turun bas, saya menurunkan purple ikut tingkap. oldschool gila bas bukak tingkap, pakai fresh air, owh mungkin saya bercuti ke vietnam kot takpon kemboja. so turunkan lah beg tu, sambil ada org tunggu kat bawah nak menyambut beg. kemudian beg terlepas org bawah tak sempat menyambut beg dan jatuh lah beg ke tanah. aku pon ahhhh sudahhh berderai gak kamera gua ade dalam tu. aku pon berlari untuk mendapatkan purple. bukak2 beg skali hancur kamera aku terabur pecah habis semua lense. retak seribu. masa tu aku dah takde daya, lemah longlai lalu terhambur lah air mata jantan...

sedar2 air mata ade kat pipi. sambil jantung berdegup kencang. mimpi rupenya. baru terpikir nak jual dah dapat mimpi begini, mungkin petanda kamera mahu terus bersama saya mengharungi hari2 mendatang berdua, bersama..

sobbs takkanku berbuat begitu.. baby baby baby ohhh baby baby baby ohhh *bieber

Random Video #1

2010-11-15T16:22:00.007+08:00

Stumble upon this video when i was trying to find something on my disc.

I'm just in love by Glay.

Gotta love this one!

p/s: their live music is awesome. u ought to see them japanese crying through out the song. touche'

Merapi

2010-11-13T20:44:00.010+08:00

sedih tengok orang jogjakarta yang tinggal kat gunung merapi tu. mati keras kot. gunung merapi ni gunung berapi aktif, jadi memang expected dia akan meletup again n again. masa pegi sana dulu, semua macam okay, aman je kampung tu, hijau subur. tapi gunung ni mmg sentiasa keluarkan stim dan debu sepanjang masa. mesti semua org tanya kenapa la yang bijak sgt taknak pindah penempatan sementara ke? tp orang sana mmg sayang kampung diorang, diorang anggap macam itu ketentuan Illahi so diorg berserah. dan menurut guide(hilang ingatan nama guide ni) yg bawak kitorg naik atas tu, org kampung tu sayang sgt dengan tanah yg subur, n binatang peliharaan diorg, so mmg payah nak suh pindah. kalau pindah nak hangkut abeh sapi2 lembu2 kobau2 diorg. mmg takpat la kan. so end up terkorban.

penjaga merapi tu pon terkorban kali ni, selama2 ni dia selamat. guide tu dulu citer, penjaga tu dulu masa gunung merapi meletus masa 2006, lava ni mengalir ke kampung2 tapi sampai tang umah dia, sekali lava tu divert, tebelah dua, so teselamat. lepas kejadian tu, tetiba dia jadi cam artist, abes semua media2 dtg umah dia. siap jadi duta product kopi kuat bagai. hahaha. menurut citer guide ni la. kesahihan tak dapat dipastikan.

i cant believe ive been this near to gunung merapi (padahal pakai tele)

sedih bila tengok gamba yg media indonesia posted on their website. tak sanggup nak paste kat sini. lembu keras, manusia keras. kesian diorg. ade gamba tu lembu melecur merah2 badan kulit terbakar. more pictures here. tengok lah. kesian dorg. berapa byk kali nak cakap kesian daa, tp tulah, itu je aku mampu cakap, simpati. doa2 lah cepat abes semua2 nih. kesian(lagi). jadi marilah kita bersyukur negara kita selamat takde bencana2 macam ni. bak kata orang, hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, eloklah negeri sendiri (sebenarnya tatau nak relate pepatah ni, tp rasa cam pepatah ni agak sesuai)

Kuat (ke?)

2010-11-12T17:43:00.003+08:00

Doomed.

I did wrong, and I felt wrong.

I need a fresh start. and in order to start anew, I need to clean up my mess first. ASAP.

Inilah yang dikatakan, cari pasal.

Arrghh my bad, my bad.

Kemas laju laju sekarang maisarah!!!!!

2010-11-09T09:12:00.004+08:00

Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani

Surah Al-mukminun

[1] Sesungguhnya berjayalah orang-orang yang beriman,
[2] Iaitu mereka yang khusyuk dalam sembahyangnya;
[3] Dan mereka yang menjauhkan diri dari perbuatan dan perkataan yang sia-sia;
[4] Dan mereka yang berusaha membersihkan hartanya (dengan menunaikan zakat harta itu);
[5] Dan mereka yang menjaga kehormatannya, -
[6] Kecuali kepada isterinya atau hamba sahayanya maka sesungguhnya mereka tidak tercela: -
[7] Kemudian, sesiapa yang mengingini selain dari yang demikian, maka merekalah orang-orang yang melampaui batas;
[8] Dan mereka yang menjaga amanah dan janjinya;
[9] Dan mereka yang tetap memelihara sembahyangnya;
[10] Mereka itulah orang-orang yang berhak mewarisi -
[11] Yang akan mewarisi Syurga Firdaus; mereka kekal di dalamnya.

ps: semua yg jadi ada hikmahnya. bila sakit ingat nak mati. bila ingat nak mati, ingat dosa sendiri kemudian baru sedar diri tak layak lagi untuk bertenang macam dah layak nak mati dengan tenang. (not that i pray for mati awal)

Sabtu

2010-11-09T08:28:00.004+08:00

from the very beginning of the day, i wasnt feeling good, the stomach not feeling good, the head was spinning, but then ive made my promise to go to a fren's wedding with ejom.
hati pon tak sedap. mum advised me not to go. tapi sebab dah janji ku gagahkan juaa (drama)
sampai umah pengantin lepak2 w ilie shawn sue satey hujan herjom eh dan juga faisal. dan juga spent.
sekali baya paking, cermin keter takleh naik. cam hampes keter proton mmg suka problem tingkap. hati dah debar2 mintak2 tak hujan.
sekelip mata, hujan turun mencurah2 ke ladang gandum. basah lenjan. dah la mmg nak demam dr awal. bawak takleh laju byk traffic light from ipoh otw back home. masa tu dalam hati, ha tulah tak ikut nasihat mak. hamek kauuu
drop herjom back home pastu nak sampai umah dah nih kat masjid sekali batuk2 muntak terus. dalam hati mmg kompom aku kene ni busuk keter abah. nasib baik ade plastik. tak kena kusyen semua. balik2 lari masuk toilet muntah lagi.
2 hari demam paling dasyat dalam hidup sampai harini. tp sekarang dah mild.
thanks mak jaga anak demam dengan baik. i love u mummy.
masa ni ingat nak mati dah. tak ingat lain dah. sambil doa jgn la aku mati harini
sebenarnye samapi semalam aku still rasa sakit takut nak mati. sebab balik umah sewa muntah lagi. malam amik exam. dpt saddle pon tak cukup untuk membuatkan hati gumbira. tak penah lagi sakit demam macamni.

Kadang kadang terlepas pandang..

2010-11-01T13:08:00.011+08:00

Doa Antara Dua Sujud & Makna

Rabbighfirli (Tuhanku, ampuni aku)

Warhamni (sayangi aku)

Wajburnii (tutuplah aib aibku)

Warfa'nii (angkatlah darjatku)

Warzuqnii (berikanlah aku rezeki)

Wahdinii (berilah aku petunjuk)

Wa'afini (sihatkan aku)

Wa'fuannii (maafkan aku)

Random

2010-10-27T10:44:00.004+08:00

i always always always drop by to petronas/essoontherun/ shell on my way back frm home/school, beli air sedap. habit? maybe.
and amongst my favorite buy will be milokotak, vitagen hijau, vanilla coke, and always my hearty drink, lemonade tinge by spritzer c:
i hate cigarette smoke (who doesnt?). and a slight odour of smoke can cause me headache. seriously effing hate em smokers.
usually when i get all stress ill go jogging and running around like no one cares with the music bombarding on my ear. lepas ni nak try cycling!
saya suka makan nasik lemak kampung daun pisang.
i am pretty much a secretive person. i hardly open up myself to people. only to those i found comfort like no one else aka special. only to those i can be who i am when i am with em. i am preety much a good pretender but in front of these people, everyhting will fall into pieces. ill be all witty, crybaby.
when nurul ayu got married last year, i thought we'll never gonna have pillow talk session like we used to have when we were roomies, but boy i was wrong, shes a mother now, and we still do pillow-talk. from far. much love bestie!
i am mellow today. restless yesterday. despise that.
talentime is seriously a must-watch movie. very lively, and guess what i cant a believe how a movie can touch my emotion so much like talentime did. ost semua best, i can barely stop weeping towards the end. yes, i am soppy like that.
and so i am listening to MammaMia! ost today to wash away the mellowness.
i love all aizat's songs. saya juga suka p ramlee. sentimental values.
i guess i am missing the good old days. badly :(
ok here come em warm tear drops. i guess the monthly red flag is approaching its way in.
with that, lets put the MammaMia ost on replay. my my how can i resist you?

saya lah elmo

Broga with Idayu

2010-10-25T20:32:00.016+08:00

semua gamba idayu tangkap guna kamera beliau.

memperkenalkan..

gamba emo wajib ade. hehe. see that shoes on my feet? dats my new love :)

i got engaged to the nature on that day :)

macam pernah lihat gamba ni ek? tapi di mana hehehehe

from the third pinnacle

hebat kakak ni ajak sambung gunung tok wan terus

comel gila poney ni poney tail lawa gila

top up kalori -_-"

zzZzzzZz

Hari Ini

2010-10-23T15:59:00.009+08:00

1. baru saya tahu, on weekends, Bukit Broga tiba2 berubah menjadi playground.
2. oh, akhirnya ke hutan aku berlari (dian sastrawordoyo) bersama idayu.
3. tiba2 bepeluh tahap dewa. dan busuk. ngehehehe. dah lama gilaaaa tak peluh byk cam harini.
4. the journey was okay, nasib baik running shoes bg semangat untuk jogging sejak akhir2 ni. kalau tak pancit jugak kot?
5. tiba2 teringat masa kecil, selalu naik bukit engku busu kat lumut dengan abah n adik beradik. tp sekrg abah cakap bukit tu byk barbie(oink oink). so bahaya sket kalau nak naik.
6. bila tengok kaler2 hijau, katanya akan memberi ketenangan.
7. sampai puncak lapar gila teringin nasik lemak daun pisang.
8. tapi bila turun kitorg gi makan pizza 6 jenis cheese. ngahahaha (mama riyaz sila jeles)
9. jadi saya membuat kesimpulan, calories burnt=calories consumed :(
10. tp gembira, akhirnya i got to be in the woods again. (walau tak brape nak woods sgt)
11. masa otw turun, sy terpikir, how did i manage to go through an 11 hours journey + beg berat + hujan + mencanak + gelap takde lampu kepala (head lamp) to the top of Gunung Tok Nenek. kekuatan luar biasa? atau kegilaan luar biasa? atau kuasa luar biasa?
12. my daypack spirit pon automatik busuk sekali bila dah tuan dia busuk. busuk busuk busuk harini hari busuk semua. tp happy :)

tiba2 playing in my head: bieber u smile i smileee hey hey hey (tau lirik itu aje)

kelaka

2010-10-19T09:23:00.003+08:00

bila baca balik post semalam (natijah) rasa macam kelakar pulak.

boleh tahan gak emo aku nih.

hahahahaha.

time is running fast i couldnt bare losing any now.

Revamp! (konon2)

2010-10-12T09:59:00.003+08:00

mempersembahkan layout baru. sebenarnya tak brape pandai nak tuka2. main2 je tekan2 sana sini. and voila! (bajet macam cantik sgt je hehe). ok the thing i love the most about the new layout is obviouly the header (eh, tapi header tak tuka pon??) haa sebab tu la tak tuka sebab suka sangat. hehe. ok next. saya suka background baru. kerana entah, love at the first sight? suka tengkorak tu. ye that skull. design dia simple tapi menarik. feminine tapi rockstar. macam bunga2 sy. yayyyy!

p/s: thanks for making it (almost) happen c:

i want to

2010-10-06T16:55:00.007+08:00

be in the woods

read my favourite books

love everyone around like I should (sweet sial serigala ni)

and last but not least..

enjoy the ride
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(gambar tiada kerna belum berjumpa)

Lesson learnt :|

2010-09-20T08:48:00.004+08:00

The invigilator/interviewer told me 'u are too cute for this job. cause u smile a lot. this job requires someone serious. u did gain my attention and make me wanna listen to ur speech(public speaking), but yeah, too cute, too young, too friendly. please try again when u r 27 or somethin'. and he got three words from me: WHAT THE HECK???!!? (dalam hati) :|

one thing fo sho. bukan rezeki saya. percayalah pada perancanganNya, maisarah.

and the day has come to an end.

2010-09-09T02:57:00.007+08:00

today mark the last day of ramadhan. how time flies (cliche hehe), and tomorrow we will be celebrating 1st syawal. praise be to Allah swt, with his counts and blessings we were able to perform our duty as His servant in this holy month of ramadhan. lets pray we will be blessed again with more ramadhan, insyaAllah.

bulan ramadhan ni lain sikit dr ramadhan2 sebelum2nya, sebab tahun ni i rajin bangun sahur *bangga sgt, rasa nak hug diri sendiri ucap tahniah* siap makan2 masak2 lagi. hahaha. sebelum ni punya suka tido sampai taknak sahur. sekarang dah berubah sket. alhamdulillah. tapi sedikit ralat akibat kekangan masa, jarang dapat berterawikh di masjid. abis kelas dah pukul 9. sampai umah 930. huhuhu. pastu berangan bila dah stat cuti midsem nak gi masjid, tetapi masih ade kekangan. kalini kekangan biologi pulak. technically i dah raya awal dah. wuaaaaaa sedih :(

so dah balik rumah untuk raya, tapi sedih, takde sape kat umah. kakak2 sume dah kawen kena ikut suami. dulu duduk satu bilik dgn mallissa, walaupon selalu asyik nak gaduh, tapi skrg rindu :( sekarang kena naik bilik atas, duduk sorang2 je. dah lah tu kat atas ni aku sorang2 je sebab semua org duduk bilik2 bawah. bilik sebelah ni ha kosong je. wuaa sedih lagi. apehal ko sedih je blasah kang. sebab takde adik beradik perempuan di rumah. kakak2 dah kawen, so tinggal i dgn emak aje. dulu2 masa nak raya masa kakak2 tak kawen lagi, selalu buat kuih raya sama2. lepas sahur tak tido punya semangat nk buat kuih. tp i selalu kena jadi mangsa basuh peralatan buat kuih. nyampah gila (sedih lagi).

ni kemuncak kesedihan, masa bulan puasa 26Ramadhan tahun 2004, haritu hari jumaat, sobs, arwah tok telah kembali ke rahmatullah. meninggalkan kami semua untuk bersama dgn arwah Wan di alam yg lain. kitorg satu family rapat dgn tok pasal kitorg tinggal sekali. ya allah ya tuhanku, rindu nya tatau nak cakap camane. rindu sangat. dulu masa raya, selalu tolong tok buat ketupat daun palas. ok malas citer memory i dah sobbing dah nih. rumah kitorg tinggal now ni pon rumah arwah wan n arwah tok. masa arwah tok pergi, abah sedih sgt tak penah tgk beliau sedih macamtu sampai demam seminggu. semoga roh arwah tok, arwah wan, arwah nenek(emak tok), arwah adik muhamad, tenang di sana dan dicucuri rahmat yang maha Esa. al-fatihah.

habis citer sedih.

jadi, esok raya, sebagai tester saya bersemangat untuk memulakan hari esok. hehe. makanya, emak dan saya akan bertindak sebagai chef (padahal jadi tukang kacau je) untuk masakan2 hari raya. rendang, ketupat palas, rendang tok, sup tulang, kuah kacang nasik himpit. tak sabarnye nak makan semuaaaa. hidangan hari pertama, NASIK DAGANG! yayyyhooo. hidangan hari kedua, NASIK TOMATO n LAKSA MEE, hidangan hari ketiga, BIHUN SUP TULANG. jadi anda ada option untuk dtg hari ape, kalau nak dtg tiga2 hari pon boleh, mak tak kesah!

selamat hari raya aidilfitri
ampun maaf zahir dan batin
dari, saye dan usain bolt.

suka sebab dia suka pose tunjuk kelangit camni. style

tetiba tepikir, nnti kalau aku plak kawen sape nak teman emak????!??!?

All or Nothing. Are you game?

2010-09-06T03:12:00.006+08:00

I guess to be "someone's wife" is really a huge thang. i mean its a lifetime decision, u never wanna go wrong with it. u dont simply yes to any marriage proposals dont ya. sigh sebenarnya, hakikatnya, hati yang beku, belum terbuka, jodoh belum sampai untuk berkahwin *no butterfly feeling whatsoever*. datang lah material bagaimanapun, mungkin boleh buat gembira, tapi kalau tak ikhlas buat apa nak teruskan, betul tak? u surely dont wanna share ur bed heck ur entire life with someone u r not comfortable with, dont ya? and obviously this aint no game, man. definitely its aint no game. hearts and feelings bukan game. kalau nak main game boleh beli psp.

'9 buah buku dan 9 botol minyak wangi. tp sayang, hatinya beku'

One saying: She's just not that into you.

Irrevocably mean. Tapi mungkin ini yang terbaik. Sekarang. Masa depan, tak siapa tahu. Wallahualam.

p/s: one thing for u guys out there, if u dont want girls to be perasan/gedik syok sendiri, stop making them feel special. kalau dah semua gadis u treat in a special way, whats so special, then?

Manis dan Kurang Manis

2010-09-02T15:28:00.004+08:00

NOT SWEET! :( Lets save our turtle! Poor them.

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind
"Pooh!" he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you."

Awwww so suweeeettt.

Please Stay

2010-08-24T06:18:00.005+08:00

speedy recovery pliss, kancil.

you will never know what you' ve got till its gone.

Currently playing: Estrella - Stay.

Usaha // Effort

2010-08-17T13:36:00.008+08:00

kadang2 kita cepat berserah, kadang2 tak usaha pn, tak put any effort pn, pastu terus rasa nak mengalah. rasa nak back off. kadang2 sebab bisikan syaithan. kadang2 sebab assumption yang kita speculate tanpa bertanya atau tanpa berfikir panjang. when the only thing we need to do is grow some guts, and ask for the truth, instead of speculating things that dont even exist(blerghh cakap pasal diri sendiri pffft boo you)

and untuk itu, berusahalah, menjadi lebih baik dalam pekerjaan, berusahalah dalam pelajaran, berusahalah dalam kehidupan seharian. yeah, i rarely see efforts from myself nowadays, im kinda in plateau state. where evthing seem in good conditions, balance and all, yet, no one knows whats gonna happen next, no? the keyword is : BE PREPARED. we have no frigging idea whats on our way. huhuhu takut.

i read once at someone's fb status: 'bersangka baiklah dengan Dia, dan kita akan hidup seperti di taman bunga, dan jika kita bersangka buruk dengan Dia, kita akan hidup sperti di hutan yang gelap tanpa cahaya' (ayat main petik je tp camnilah lebih kurang). maksudnya let us not, think that something bad is going to happen to us, contohnye, habislah mesti aku fail test micro-e ni, soalan cam harem. dat is considered bersangka buruk tauhu tak maisarah?? jadi marilah kita bersangka baik dengan masa depan, tak baik ingat yang buruk2 pasal masa depan, sebab kita ni sape yang tau sgt pasal benda2 ghaib nih. pastu emo plak tuh. kang jadi betol2 baru tau. so dari imagine benda2 buruk berlaku pada masa depan, baik imagine benda2 yang manis dan cantik. bila imagine pon tenang je hati. yang penting, effort (jadi slogan hidup skang)

sama jugak kesnya, kadang2 taktau nak buat keputusan, taktau nak say hi ke tak, taktau boleh ke nak cakap ke tak. maybe we r too scared of the response. maybe we just cant put it into words. thinking of the "what if's" holds us back from taking the step forward that maybe wl change the rest of our lives. redah je yang penting usaha boleh tak? well i guess we (read: me) think tad too much about the consequences, no?

Apa yang penting, at the end of the day, its the efforts that count. and the rest of the story, is up to Yang Maha Mengetahui for He Knows whats best for His slave. put our trust in Him, have no doubt.

Sekian, selamat berpuasa, salam ramadhan, semoga kita semua sama2 berusaha mendapat keberkatan dan keampunan dari yang satu.

ye, ini monolog dalaman.

Silence hit, yet again.

2010-07-25T21:08:00.003+08:00

Just like how Facebook killed my Friendster, Twitter has killed my Blogspot. And yeah so that explained my dissapearance. wont say that im having a writer's block cause, im not a writer pon, i am just a rambler. Its just that ive found a better place to rant, bare with me twitple. hehe. i hope august will come fast cause love will be around comes august paycheck, with God's will. i byk angan2, hopefully this one will come true as planned. Juliet!

currently running on my playlist: make u feel my love by Adele. its a strong song singing how much a woman loves the love. shes such a talented singer, left me in awe evtime i listen to this song. suffice to say, i am glued. well i guess, love is such a strong word comply with strong passion over it. and to make the love stay strong and healthy, is magic (read: hidden helping hands)

Affirmative?

See ya when i see ya again!

Unta LOL

2010-07-14T08:58:00.001+08:00

Unta tutup lubang hidung masa ribut pasir.
Comel. rasa nak pukul. hehehe

Kisah Unta

2010-07-10T15:47:00.004+08:00

suka gelak sorang2 bila tgk gamba ni.

the camel was trying hard to munch my turquoise elephant on my maryjane. hahaha when i looked at this pic i remember those time when i was still in Uitm, we had trip to elephant sanctuary in pahang, one of the gajah tried to give a peck on my cheek. and after few jeritan from moi, i gave in, she got to kiss me on my cheek. and she managed to put up one big smile on this happy girl.

kisah unta ni pon sama, at first, he was trying to smell me or what i dont know, and then, we isntantly got engaged to each other. hahahaha. talking about chemical attraction. i was about to pat his long neck when he suddenly went down to kiss my lower body part. BOY, that was histeric. hahaha. i remember i was giggling and shouting and screaming. and then he got attracted to my little gajah and tried to snatch that away with his teeth. no way maaannn!

i always have soft spot for gajah. always. and now i ve added into the list unta. and penyu. and harimau. hahahah such a crusher i am. they are all loving animals. how wish i could pet them on my backyard. super-coolio!

fun-fact: them camels can close their nostril when the sand-storm hits in. so they'll be like nostril-less during the stand-storm. watched them did that during the visit and boy that was really cute!

Reconnecting

2010-07-08T08:43:00.003+08:00

ive been restless this past few weeks
sometimes i feel like giving up
giving up on everything
its going to take me nowhere though
if i ever give up

life is unpredictable
life is full of surprises
i control no hearts
free and easy they all are
and i control no feelings
gift and luck they all are,
in the hand of the Almighty

picking up the pieces
i am grateful for where i am now
for those who stand by me now and then
i cant thank God enough for all his blessings
i cant thank everyone around enough for countless loves poured in

whatever happen in the future
i have to be strong and hold on
denying all despair to get in
sharing more happiness
giving out more loves

Dear Almighty,
Make me a strong person
with a strong heart
honesty
willingness
and determination
to go through this journey called life

Dear Almighty
Guide me. Love me. Lead me.
for i have no one to turn to,
but You.

Umrah Episode 3

2010-07-06T12:00:00.009+08:00

kita bertemu lagi dalam episod seterusnya iaitu episod bergambar. untuk episod ini, sy akan memaparkan gambar disekitar madinah beserta caption. tiada cerita panjang2 hehepagi pertama di madinah, nak gerak gi masjid quba'masjid quba' : masjid pertama yg dibina Rasulullah sebaik baginda sampai di madinah, barangsiapa yang datang dari madinah kemudian melakukan solat sunat 2rakaat di masjid ini, maka dikurniakan padanya pahala menunaikan satu kali umrah padanya (ayat buku)and the morning sun starts shining in. its around 9 if im not mistaken. love this.
bukit uhud tempat peperangan uhud berlaku, berlaku pertumpahan darah disini. Rasulullah telah berpesan pada orang2 yg pergi berperang supaya jgn turun dari bukit pemanah sehingga diberi arahan, tetapi mereka telah melanggar arahan Rasulullah lalu para pemanah ini telah menjadi korban peperangan ini.bukit pemanahziarah wada'(selamat tinggal) di masjjid nabawi sebelum bertolak ke mekah. ziarah makam Rasul saw dan para sahabat baginda. sobs sedih.

Girls Talk

2010-06-28T16:39:00.004+08:00

di suatu petang..

M: weh ko suke mane?
E: aku suke argentina. semangat francisco aku masih menebal *senyum gatal* ko?
M: aku sokong sape2 dr africa, semangat tuan umah ni lain sikit. so ghana lah.
S: aku sokong barcelona. siap ade shawl barcelona jgn main2 *senyum bangga kembang hidung*
M & E: APEJADAH SEJAK BILE BARCELONA MASUK WORLD CUP??? *muka tak percaye*
S: eh eh tak masuk eh.. laaa ingat kan masuk. hehehehe

Can U See What I See?

2010-06-28T15:49:00.003+08:00

semua org boleh tunjuk
tapi tak semua orang boleh nampak
kita tak boleh paksa orang untuk lihat dan nampak
diri sendiri kena buka mata, nilai
mungkin lepas tu akan nampak.

Umrah Episode 2

2010-06-28T15:05:00.003+08:00

Madinah

1. ok sambung, tetapi tertinggal memory card di perak pulak, xdapat nak print poster lagi.
2. masa kat madinah, rileks, pergi masjid nabawi, melawat makam rasul. macam tak percaya dah ade depan mata. kena tunggu lama untuk sampai ke makam nabi nih. sebab lepas ke makan nabi akan terus ke raudhah, taman syurga, solat sunat n solat hajat kat sini, insyaAllah makbul. kena tunggu ikut kewarganegaraan. mainly because they dont want us little asian, to get trapped among the arabians i guess. dan dia ade timing untuk perempuan, kalau lelaki boleh pergi bila2 masa. lucky you mensss!
3. masa dekat madinah, kami pergi masjid quba'. iaitu masjid pertama yang dibina oleh Nabi Muhamad sebaik sahaja baginda tiba di Madinah. dah besar dah masjid ni. kalau orang madinah, atau sesiapa saja dari madinah, datang ke masjid ini dan menunaikan solat sunat 2 rakaat, maka beliau akan mendapat pahala satu kali umrah. best kan?
4. lepastu pergi ladang kurma, tapi masa tu belum season kurma, dia masih kuning2 kat atas pokok. cantik. n pergi kilang dia, boleh makan apa saje freeeee of charge. dan sebagai orang yang suka makan saya dengan ini ingin membuat confession, saya telah makan kurma fresh kat tangkai tp frozen ade la dalam 30 bijik sepanjang 20minit berada di kilang tersebut. round2 kemudian makan. sampai kenyang la gak. ah memang dasarrrrr taktahu malu. kuat makan. tapi lazat gile kot, kalah yusuf taiyoob seme tuh.
5. kemudian, ke pasar kurma untuk membeli belah kurma pule. kat ladang boleh jugak beli tetapi harganya sedikit mahal, kata abah. taktau nak beli kurma2 nih. tau makan n jadi taster je. maka kita serahkan pada yang pakar. tau beli apricots apricots dan kacang cerdik. dan kurma chocolate almond. sedap! two thumbs up untuk kamu kurma chocolate almond! tp i tak bawak byk duit, so beli sikit jek.
6. sepanjang kat sana, everyday makan plum segar, apricot segar, peach segar, anggur dan honey dew yang di import dari egypt. murah dan sedap. *drooling* indahhhh
7. ok nak citer masa kat raudhah satu hari tu. hari jumaat, final day before we left for mekah, pagi tu lepas buat ziarah wida', kitorang berangan nak pegi raudhah, sekali tanye dekat polis masjid dia kata malaysian punye team tak masuk lagi, so masih sempat. it was our third time there, n selalunya i keluar awal, mak, kakak, makcik n kak aya selalu keluar lambat sket pas solat sume. so haritu mallissa bagi tips macamana nak stay lama dalam tu, sebab selalunya polis ni akan suruh kita bangun bila dia tgk kita dah bagi salam. so i ikut la tips tu. n dapat la duduk lama sikit dalam raudhah tu. wangi gila kat situ, wlaaupon selautan manusia masuk takde pon bau tak sedap kat situ. ade satu bau yang wangi sgt. i ni plak jenis yang suka nak amaze lebih2 kan(macam amaze kat gunung cameron yg macam fairytale tu, sampai kena marah dgn pah hahah), so macam tak sedar dah duduk lama dalam tu. tapi i masih yakin, diorg masih di dalam, jadi tunggu la diorg kat kawasan jauh siket dr situ. i was like, aih diorg ni, tau la last day, lama nya, macam pelik pon ade sebab tak kena halau ke? pastu i gerak tunggu kat pintu masjid, tunggu kat sane lah, sebab kasut mak ade skali dgn my kasut. so mungkin nanti dorg gerak kat pintu kot, bisik i dalam hati. hehehe. tunggu dalam 5minit skali dgr Mallissa jerit, ACU! pastu kena la seround kan. hahah. rupa2nye dah sejam diorg cari2 anak perempuan ni hilang. macam tak sedar je dah tunggu sejam lebih dalam tu. mak tunggu kat bilik hotel dah gelabah2 suruh abah cari.
8. ya itu dia kisah kehilangan sejam di raudhah. macam konfiden je tunggu kat luar n kat dalam sorang2. tapi serious takde la rasa risau sgt ke, rasa gelabah ke. humm mungkin ni ujian tuhan untuk hamba2nye, dan aku pulak dpaat kesempatan duduk lama kat raudhah, dekat dgn Rasulullah. humm terima kasih Tuhan!
9. ok sambung macam boring takde gamba. maksudnye next week la sambung. tunggu dapat memory card.

Umrah Episode 1

2010-06-24T00:19:00.003+08:00

Random and not in sequence.

KLIA-Madinah

1. took off from klia and reached madinah at almost 5pm. sebelum bertolak, ustaz ade cakap, kalau ade apa2 yang rase belum terluah, kena luahkan sekarang, biar segalanya tinggal kat sini, takyah bawak gi sana. so i put my guards down and texted few close ppl, and yeah made some confession and burn my ego down. so yeah. that was it. it was kinda embarrasing but then i feel relieved and at ease after that ;)
2. upon arrival, as we touched down, the pilot announced that the temperature at madinah at that moment was 50degree celcius and i was like, for reaaall? and so we went off the air plane and the first air i breath was warm and hot and humid. and it kinda hurt my nostril. but the weather was very much bearable. i managed to adapt to my new temperature well and alhamdulillah, we were all in good health while we were there.
3. my mum said the crowd we had in madinah n mekah were almost the same to the crowd she had while she was there performing her Hajj 4 years back. and then i came to know that, saudi arabia and almost every nearby country were on school holiday (like us!) and so explained the huge crowd we had. so we were like at the country of the world, where we can see malaysian, indonesian, bruneian, pakistan, indian, iranian, turkey ppl, spanish and all the ___tan2 country(macam citer p ramlee plak ;).
4. while we were at madinah (4days) we went to masjid nabawi, masjid quba', makan nabi muhamad saw, raudhah (a place between mimbar nabi and makam nabi), perkuburan baqi'. ade story kat raudhah ni, tapi ill keep the best for the last. hehe ;)
5. masjid nabawi is the place where we perform our prayer all the time, and mind you, due to the huge crowd, ppl were pushing each other to go into this masjid. actually the masjid's police were being kinda strict with the women, as we are not allowed to bring in camera, or cameraphone into the mosque. so they had to checked each and every jemaah and so explained the aksi tolak menolak akibat ketaksabaran. and because im so little(among them), lessen the hassle, thank God.
6. subuh prayer was at 330am there, so after subuh prayer, abah will always treat us good food outside the mosque(everytime after prayer pon haha). yumms i like. mutton raan and aiskream everyday hence explained my bulatan face. thank you daddy!
7. everytime after prayer, the illegal peniaga will start selling their goods outside the mosque, along the walkway towards our hotel (which is ajust across the road). and they will be singing and shouting to attract customer. salah satu nye, shabalah shabalah shabalah. which means murah murah murah! hahaha it was kinda entertaining and they talk fluent bahasa too. im impressed. shows how much our people love shopping.
8. esok sambung, bleh? ngantuk dah. hehe ;)
9. plus gamba jugak esok hehe

Semalam

2010-06-22T00:31:00.002+08:00

semalam merupakan hari bersejarah untuk diri sendiri, kerana dengan penuh kesabaran naik pelbagai jenis kenderaan lebih dari 24jam dan tido macam sudah tiada esok. on the way back from makkah to jeddah airport, naik bas dan pusing bandar jeddah sebelum bording pukul 12mlm. naik2 flight, dapat suratkhabar saudi baca few pages, terus tetido. sedar je mase tu flght pon tak take off lagi tgh strolling(?) down the runway mencari momentum. so i went off before the flight took off the ground. after few minutes(but seriuosly it felt like hours), steward kejut dan tanya , 'miss, apple juice or orange juice?' aku hanya mampu tersenyum kepada steward tu dan terus tido balik.

kemudian selang beberapa minit, aku dikejutkan lagi oleh steward tu untuk bg makan. dia tanya, 'miss, chicken or beef?' sekali lagi aku hanya mampu tersenyum dan menutup kembali mata untuk tiduran. perghh masa ni aku rasa, steward ni rasa budak ni annoying gila rasa nak tampa je. nak tido, tido je la, nak senyum2 plak. pastu aku dengar abah cakap, 2 chicken 1 beef. kemudian perjalanan tidur diteruskan. ade la dalam 18 kali mak kejut suruh bangun makan. dasar takleh kurang tido, biarlah berlapar, asalkan tido cukup. sedar2 je, macam dah terang, tak lama kemudian dia serve breakfast, dinner malam tadi tak besentuh pon. dalam 3jam gak la pastu baru sampai klia. pastu sambung plak naik bas sampai perak. dalam bas, makcik (mallissa's mil) cakap, mai tidur lumba2 dgn adam (abgngah 3y.o. nephew). tp adam menang, sampai klia baru dia bangun. nampak sangat dasatnye di situ *shame*

Of Opportunities, Chances and Lights

2010-06-02T17:11:00.001+08:00

for I am not sure which water should i dive into

for i always need You to guide me through.

p/s: a week away.

Super Belated // Super Bloated?

2010-06-02T08:46:00.007+08:00

Selamat Hari Jadi Emak (2304)
Selamat Hari Jadi Mardiana (2605)
Selamat Hari Emak untuk Emak n Ayong.
dan semua emak2 di seluruh dunia. you mothers are simply OSSUMMM!

p/s: plz excuse the melting cream on the side as the baker was too lazy to whip some cream and put on the light whipping cream (the one they use on frappucino, ice blanded) instead.

Not Okay

2010-05-23T12:15:00.005+08:00

Have you ever felt like screaming W H A T E V E R at the top your lungs? Because you're just too tired to care for anything anymore. And you just want to ignore everything and everyone around you? Well, that's basically how I'm feeling now. I hate saying 'whatever' to people and I don't like people saying it to me too. Rude, I know. Someone might say that everything I wrote on my blog sounds rebelious and depressing. I just can't help it, can I? Writing is the only way to make me feel better, apart from being with my loved ones. Rindu ;(. I did try to be happy most of the time, but there are times when things just suck and make me sad. There are just too many emotions one can keep in one's chest. but there are also too many secrets one can keep telling to their friends. And my problem is, I don't get comfortable talking to just anyone about just anything. I tend to keep things to myself. Keep it silence, smile, hoping for the wind to blow everything away. Apparently, that didn't happen all the time. There's one person i can talk evething about, perhaps, tad too much about. But, I cant burden that person all the time, I dont wanna be anyone's burden heck. I'm not even a priority pon. So, back off, maisarah.

I wish i can be at my mum's arm now, hug her tight, and cry my heart out. I'll surely feel good, without having to tell her anything at all. I just don't tell her everything, I'm good at keeping things to myself, no? But I'm pretty sure, she kinda knows almost evthing, talking about mum's instict. For the time being, I'm better off keeping things to myself, though I dont know how long can I stand, cause everyone knows, it's not easy.

when the dogs bite
when the bee stings
when i'm feeling sad
i simply remeber my favourite things
and then i dont feel so bad

p/s: thanks housemate, for your concern. love ya.
p/s2: 16days left. time please fly by faster.

anak angkat

2010-05-23T01:03:00.005+08:00

just got back from upm, dinner alumni upm. ya i know, sejak bile kan jadi alumni upm, enroll pon belom lagi dah makan malam alumni apehal. haha. saya di sana kerana, saya yang menurut perintah. hamik la kerja kerajaan, tak boleh membantah, kerana kalau pegawai kelas bawahan cabuk2 ni, bila nak sign surat, kene tulis, saya yang menurut perintah, maka, jika dapat surat, secara automatis, anda diklasifikasikan sebagai, orang yang menurut perintah, maka tidak boleh tidak, kena ikut perintah. wakilkan boss. *mode nak bukak tadika ON*

maka, apabila melihat kepada majlis makan malam alumni homecoming, anda pasti boleh agak range2 umur mereka yang turut serta dalam majlis ini. sudah pasti umur2 my dad. see im too young for all this(bajet muda). dah semua atendees semua tak kenal, kecuali those familiar faces from mardi. so niat ke majlis, hanyalah kerana kerja, ikhlaskan diri, selain dapat makan percuma yaww. i likesss. masa nak amik makanan, jumpe tn hj mansor putih frm mardi, pastu ade kawan dia tanye, u bawak anak ke mansor? tn hj mansor: aah, anak i nih. me : heee (senyum je sbb tatau nak respon). bukti dah nyata i muda hahah. tn hj mansor ni humble orgnye, dia ni bapak segala biji benih beras kat msia. buleh bajet la segala royalty, patent2 yg dia dapat, memang meletops, tapi lek2 je naik moto gi opis =.='. sehingga beliau naik pangkat jadi pengarah ric (rice&industrial crop research center), barulah beliau naik kereta, itupon sebab memang pengarah dapat kereta. tp tatau la dia sekarang dah ade kereta sendiri ke tak. humble, selamba, rendah diri, bijak, pandai, berkaliber. semoga tuhan merahmati beliau dan semua orang2 begini. ok dah lari tajuk.
masa tgh makan, ade liveband main musik. main lagu p. ramlee plak tuh. haih terus rase nak join naik atas stage nyanyi skali. nyanyi lagu apek dgn cik siti tu, ya ampun, sedap nye dapat makan berulamkan lagu2 kegemaran di telinga. hehehe.

motif post: saje nak bebel sebab tak suke kena gi majlis tak sesuai umur. huhu. nasib ade liveband menyelamatkan keadaan. jadi boleh cakap yayyy untuk malam ini.

was on table no 14. and 14 days to go *dupdapdupdap

ni meja sebelah. read: agegap tsk

Carolina Moon-Nora Roberts

2010-05-20T19:59:00.002+08:00

watched dis movie on hallmark last sunday. i didnt know it was adapted from a novel with the same title written by nora roberts until i googled this movie up on the internet. i wasnt keen on watching dis at first, but ive got nothing better to do on a super hot sunny sunday, so, lazying on the couch, watching a movie, would be the best option for me then.

the story is about a little girl, named Tori. she always get some kinda glimpse/ vision of the future. macam super power la premonition camtu. and one day, she and her bestfriend, planned on a night in the wood. she couldnt make it as she was poorly beaten by her father on the evening (her father couldnt stand her as she always talk about having a vision, and by all means all her vision did come true, so the father thought her daugher is a syaithon jelmaan, thus he has to get rid of her). and so her bestfriend, Hope, went into the wood alone, waiting for her to come along. and the next thing was, Hope was reported lost in the wood. with the help of what she had saw in her mind, they found her dead body. after that, the whole family moved away frm that place, sbb bapak dia cam malu la kan anak dia syaithon jelmaan.

kemudian setelah membesar seperti juara, tori kembali ke kampung zaman kanak2 beliau, dengan tekad untuk mencari pembunuh kawan baiknya itu.

p/yasss: i want to read this book. wonder if ill get it here. and so the hunting begin!

"cade and tori sitting on a tree, k.i.s.s.i.n.g" hehh

Is it just me or ?

2010-05-20T06:23:00.005+08:00

i felt the tingle

the one that wakes up butterflys in your guts

the one that knots your throat

denying you everything you need to breathe

i was electrocuted

it left curled up corners at my lips

even when i force a frown

especially when i force a frown

i reached my hand out

but then i spun running from consequences

i turned around and felt it again and again

it was real from every angle

voices telling me its self inflicted pain

girl, u know what u are missing
all this while
all this while.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars?

2010-05-18T12:46:00.009+08:00

kadang kadang kosong
kadang kadang penuh poket full of sunshine
kadang kadang semangat
kadang kadang lemah
kadang kadang kuat
kadang kadang bangun
kadang kadang sedih
kadang kadang hopeless romantic
kadang kadang heartless
kadang kadang rindu
kadang kadang lemas
kadang kadang obses
kadang kadang obess
kadang kadang gembira
kadang kadang dukacita
kadang kadang melihat
kadang kadang mendengar
kadang kadang buat2 taknampak
kadang kadang buat2 tak sakit
kadang kadang bahagia
kadang kadang berlari
kadang kadang jaga hati
kadang kadang ingat
kadang kadang buat2 lupa
kadang kadang ignorant
kadang kadang emosi
kadang kadang malas
kadang kadang rajin
kadang kadang faham
kadang kadang hilang tujuan
kadang kadang haru biru
kadang kadang putus asa
kadang kadang positif
kadang kadang berjalan perlahan
kadang kadang perlukan masa seorang
kadang kadang mendengar
kadang kadang menyampah
kadang kadang nak muntah
kadang kadang geram
kadang kadang gelabah
kadang kadang cemerlang
kadang kadang sendiri
SELALU berharap.

After all, Im just a human, with a heart.

Listening to : Be yourself - audioslave.

Its almost time, to grow up.

2010-05-05T09:16:00.004+08:00

flyfm spin this song while i was on my way to work today. effortlessly made my morning. lets take a brew and start working laydeess

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

one of my favourite songs by j.mraz. :))

La Lune

2010-04-28T21:34:00.002+08:00

f20 : 1/20s : iso 100 : cropped

A battle lost may be a necessity to win the war.
Strength is all im praying for.
c:

Flactuation

2010-04-27T16:17:00.005+08:00

flactuation ni maksudnye turun naik. contohnye emosi yg turun naik, kadang garang, kadang baik. in my case, motivasi turun naik. post lepas bukan main console org lain, post kali ni, i need to be consoled pulak. akibat motivasi yang semakin menjunam. keje ok je sbenanya, terkawal. tp ntah, ade satu perasaan yg seperti anda tidak menjiwai apa yang sedg anda lakukan. tiba2 kena buat documentation, pastu jadi event manager. part jadi event manager, no problem, part documentation tu takbleh blaa. sebab tulah tak menjiwai. tak kene dgn jiwa. mula2 layankan aje, lama2 jadi macam malasnye la hai. banyak bunyi maisarah shariff ni. haihh. tu lah dia. nak cari kerja yg sehati dan sejiwa lah camni. nak bukak tadika. jg budak kecik hari2. main musik, nyanyi2, main kat playground, buat kek sama2 dgn budak2, bg makan, nyanyi lagu rama2 macam adam dok memekak hari2. lagu gajah lah. tadika sendiri nnti, tanak lah ajar diorg lagu rama2, boring. kita nyanyi lagu aizat dgn taylor swift, teacher main gitar. hehehehe. kalau agak2 geram, boleh peluk sampai lemas. i like. pastu bawak lawatan gi zoo. haih seronoknye lah kalau ade tadika sendiri.

kesimpulannya, i takde motivasi skrang. tatau macamana nak naikkan motivasi yg turun turun turun dan turun ni. dan2 rase nak kerja sendiri, bukak tadika. takpon jadi celebrity chef macam nigella takpon chef at home kat afc tu(bajet pandai masak huh), pastu paksa semua org makan.

tetiba rasa nak makan, ayuh gi pantry!

Mimpi

2010-04-22T09:28:00.002+08:00

misi tido lewat berjaya, sangat berjaya i shall say, kerana hanya boleh jatuh tertido (fall asleep) pada pukul 1. yang membuatkan i bangun dan blur dan tak bersemangat untuk ke tempat kerja arini. sigh tulah nak sgt tido lewat. i went to bed at 11somethinsomethin. 3 jam berkhayal atas katil thinking, wondering, remembering, beranganing. dah la sejak semalam tiada roomate, siti zuraidah pulang berkursus di kampung halaman selama 2 bulan di kuala terengganu. nasib dia tinggalkan stok budu di rumah. hehehe

kemudian, setelah tertido, termimpi pula. saya sedang menenangkan seseorg yang sedang menangis. i dont know for what reason but he was crying macam sedih sgt down sgt and there we were on the bed (daymn!), and i was there calming him down. (i swear i didnt do anything i shouldnt be doing with a man on that bed, as far as i can remember tehehe). pat his back, saying things that would make him gain his sanity back. he fall asleep, i was still there watching him sleep like a baby. and then pufff abes mimpi. tido sampai pagi. and i dont remember the guy's face pon. pfft

thats the story. mimpi can sometime make you ponder on whats happening with life. i dont know. life has been very busy now that may is approaching its way in, i can feel that im starting to suffocate with lots of works coming out of nowhere. seems like its me who need to be calmed down, instead of me calming someone else down ey? hahaha. i shall say, im very much enthusiastic, to finish off my works because i simply cant wait for june to come. my long awaited break, after 6months of financial crisis hahahaha. after that, ill concentrate on saving money to buy more gadgets and yes my humble ride. with God's grace, i hope everything will find its way in as planned. InsyaAllah.

Maybe, thats the reason im still able to calm someone else down, just, maybe.

Self-Diagnosis

2010-04-21T10:23:00.005+08:00

Sejak seminggu lepas i mengalami masalah tido awal. slalu nye pukul 12 baru tido. sentiasa sempat menonton buletin utama, csi, house, desperate housewives, the amazing race, gameshow jepon, blogger boy, american idol, the ghost whisperer dan juga slot samarinda. muahahaha. tapi itu dulu, sekarang tidak lagi, sejak seminggu yg lepas i mengalami masalah tidur awal. terlampau awal. lepas maghrib collapsed. paling lama bertahan, lepas isya'. iaitu pukul 845pm. tiada lagi aktiviti menonton tv mahupun aktiviti bersiar-siar di laman sesawang. pelik gila dgn diri sendiri, apejadah tido awal sgt mengalahkan baby. cepat benor burn kalori seharian, padahal makan sama je macam dulu2. akibat rasa tidak puas hati kerana sudah dua minggu ketinggalan episod desperate housewives, ghost whisperer dan house, i pon diagnosed diri sendiri.

minggu lepas badan tak sihat, mild fever and chesty cough. mungkin itu penyebab i kehilangan byk tenaga dan lantas masuk tido awal. lalu i google, " How many calories do you burn when caughing?" jawapan nye less than 1 calory/cough. cehh takdela banyak mane pon. i dah risau, mungkinkah diriku telah dijangkiti african sleeping sickness yang disebarkan oleh Tsetse flies. tapi sy tidak pernah ke africa -__-. google lagi, " how many calories do you burn when u fall sick". inilah dia jawapan yang kita nanti nantikan:

Minor illnesses without a fever do not increase calorie requirements, but if you do have a fever, your resting calorie expenditure will increase by about 7% for each degree rise in temperature above 98.6 degrees F or by 13% for each degree above 37 degrees C. For instance, if you burn 1500 calories at rest, and you had a 101 degree F temperature for 24 hours, you would burn about 250 additional calories that day. Severe trauma, such as burns and multiple fractures, can increase calorie requirements by as much as 100%.

minggu ni dah kurang demam, tetapi i still can feel my temperature going up when i woke up during wee hours (kata tido awal kan, mestilah terbangun). harap2 tidak akan demam tengah malam lagi minggu ini dan tidak akan tido awal lagi. kerana dah lama tak tengok tv. rinduuu

masa untuk replenish.

Kalumpang

2010-04-20T16:16:00.003+08:00

went to kalumpang resort last saturday with mallissa. homey gila kampung ada air terjun. i like. nyaman gila. tapi air terjun dia very safe n tak extreme, air terjun untuk family with little kids sesuai. untuk adrenaline junkie tak sesuai. kalau adrenaline junkie datang mesti akan cakap, yaa tuhanku, apakah yang sedang aku lakukan di sini? hehh. ok la untuk get off with hectic city life, berehat2. kemudian, kami pulang awal kerana lapar. hahaha. kerana bbq siap lambat. (i went there to teman mallissa for her office family day)

ni air terjun paling tinggi. sobs.

kemudian singgah di giant shah alam untuk membeli bahan masakan. akibat teruja melihat iklan maggi assam laksa besaaaarr punye, mallissa telah bertekad untuk masak assam laksa version sihat. maka, beli ikan tenggiri dan sayur2an untuk menyihatkan hidangan makan tengahari. dan hasilnye, sedaaaaaaaaaaaapppp giler. tapi kene makesure basuh ikan tu bersih2 supaya takde bahu bahuan hanyir pada masakan anda. gambar tiada, akibat kerakusan dua beradik yang lapar.

motif blog: nak beritahu masak maggi asam laksa letak ikan n sayur(tomato, mushroom)macam kat tv tu sedap. try la.

Deep Impact

2010-04-14T10:16:00.003+08:00

i was browsing through the internet last night, hopping in and out various kind of blogs and websites. and then something caught my attention, that left me wondering on the bed long before i went off to my dreamland. the saying goes something like this,

"orang Islam takkan pernah kalah jika berperang secara fizikal kerana mereka tidak pernah gentar jika diajak berlawan secara terang-terangan, dan satu2nya cara untuk mengalahkan umat Islam ialah dengan berperang secara halus, tanpa senjata yang nyata, dan itulah yang sedang dilakukan oleh orang yahudi sekarang"

i was taken aback after reading those lines. i dont know why but it somehow gave such huge and deep impact on me. my mind started to wander. i keep on hopping around for more reads and pictures. i stumbled upon a note on facebook by kak fadh. i made her tagged me in that note. and i reread that note entitled Alam Mahsyar. there i got another slapped right onto my cheek.

sejujurnya, saya akui, im in no position to talk about this, i know where i stand. i hate to look back and think about all the damages ive done to myself and others. dunia ni ada macam2 benda yang melalaikan. kadang2 kita sendiri tak sedar, diri sendiri(saya) dah jadi penyebab kepada kelalaian orang lain. kadang2 kita lupa, tujuan kita ada kat dunia, to serve The One and Only Almighty High Up Above, sebab lalai dengan dunia. terikut2 dengan orang2 di sekitar. hanyut. kadang2 sebab dunia, kita marah, kita sedih bagai nak gila, kita down rasa dunia dah tak bermakna. semua sebab dunia. drpd apa yg pernah sy baca, manusia akan melalui alam roh, alam rahim, alam dunia, alam kubur/barzakh, alam mahsyar, dan yg terakhir alam abadi. dekat alam dunia ni lah nak buat amalan untuk ke alam2 seterusnya. sebab masa kat alam kubur dah too late nak buat ape2. bukan tak boleh nak bebas kat dalam dunia, tapi yang penting kene besederhana dan percaya yang Dia ada. Dia yang berkuasa. kena selalu beringat.

dunia ni mmg byk dugaan, org2 yahudi pon buat macam2 nak serang kita secara mental, sebab dia takkan bejaya lawan kita secara fizikal. diorg buat muzik, buat filem, buat macam2 bg kita terikut2 dgn budaya dia. supaya kita lalai. senang diorg nak jajah kita, boleh kawan dgn dia masa akhirat nanti. dia tak paksa pon kita ikot dia, tapi its about temptation babeh. maka, kena tabah dan kuat nak lawan semua temptation tu. only the strongest will survive(theory biodiversity heheh). kadang2 kawan baik kita pon bg such temptation. kalau takde bf, takde gf org sekeliling panggil kita loser. pastu rasa diri loser, down sbb lonely. sebenarnya tak loser pon. kita yg buat diri rasa lonely. kne chill. percaya lah yang kita dah ada destiny, its just that, the future is not for us to see. kalau lari macamana pon, bila masanye dah sampai, with God's will, it will happen. so enjoy your life, do not forget the One Up Above whos watching us right now.

sy tulis begini, untuk pesan kat diri sendiri, sebab sy tahu sy selalu lupa. selalu lalai. jika saya lupa, mintak kawan2 ingatkan saya, yang dunia ni sementara. saya harap saya tak lalai, kita semua tak lalai. semoga kita semua dapat kegembiraan di dunia dan di akhirat, dan tak lupa tujuan kita ada kt atas dunia ni. tc wherever u are sweet people that i love. last but not least, KALAU SAYA LUPA, INGATKAN SAYA TAU!!!

Isnin Yang Indah

2010-04-12T16:49:00.003+08:00

sebab sebelum tido makan nasi beriyani bukhara syed. nak makan dlm kotak. tp abah suh makan kat situ. tetap indah

sebab bangun pagi mak yang kejut. walaupon dah sedar saje nak tunggu mak ketuk pintu jugak. pastu suh mak mandi dulu acu nak tido 5 menet lagi. tapi mak cakap, acu nak keje, gi la mandi dulu, mak tak keje. sempat manja2. yayy indah

sebab pakai baju cotton. rasa macam pakai selimut gi keje. haih indahhh

sebab first time gi keje dr rumah yang ada ibu bapa kerana rumah sewa tiada ibu bapa. maka sempat salam tangan peluk cium sebelum gi keje. paling indah dunia ini kurasakan

sebab pagi2 kene jalan 3km (exxagerate) nak gi kat keter sebab Mallissa tak keje tak bleh nak drop kat luar. tapi rasa happy sebab pagi td rasa tenang, nyaman, sejuk, pemandangan cantek walaupon jalan sampai senget2 bahu, senget2 baju sebab bawa laptop berat. pagi yang indah

sebab kakak toll gate ldp senyum sambil cakap, selamat pagi dengan penuh senyuman. kakak, u just made my day. senyum balik sambil cakap selamat pagiiiiiii. indah2

sebab sampai ofiice awal dr biasa, dan kemudian ucapkan selamat pagi kat semua org yg terserempak dalam ofis. dalam hati cakap, such a good start for one longgg day. indahhhh

sebab semua kerja dah siap. terindah.

taktahu whats with today, tp sy mahu setiap hati begini. nak start each and everyday with a smile. senang je melalui hari sampai petang. terima kasih tuhan untuk rasa ini. terima kasih ibubapa untuk kasih sayang tanpa belah bagi. terima kasih semuaaaaaaaaaa yg terlibat secara langsung dan tidak langsung dalam hari ini. terima kasih duniaaaaaa (start elmo sebab terharu tsk). sayang semua oranggggg. ok dah, dah.

ok bye nak balik dah. nak tgk the nanny. semoga hari2 anda juga begini, setiap hari. semoga setiap hari kita, awak, dia, semua orang akan happy. and cherish every single day we had. take care wherever you are sweet people that i love love loooovee.

Dalam Hati

2010-04-06T10:38:00.005+08:00

dalam banyak2 benda/org, kadang2 ada yang lekat lama dalam hati. bila dah ada dalam hati, kita buat apapon sentiasa akan ingat yang dalam hati tu. contoh macam kalau makan nasik lemak sedap, walaupon sedap macamana pon akan tetap ingat sedap nasik lemak mak yang ada dalam hati. bila tgk henbag cantek, tetap akan ingat henbag yang lg cantek dalam hati. bila nampak kereta vw golf kaler putih hitam dan kemudian teruja, tetap ingat keter idaman dalam hati. nampak lelaki kacak dan mulut berkata wowwww kacak mannnnn, tapi dalam hati cakap, elleehhh kacak lagi yang dalam hati ni. bila nampak candys kat airport, terus macam, eh yang dalam hati suka candys gulung2 nih. ha sampai camtu penangan benda2 dalam hati ni. segala benda pon payahlah nak tandingi benda yang dah ada dalam hati.

bila dah ade dalam hati, maksudnye da bersarang berumah bagai dalam hati. susah nak cari galang ganti. mana boleh celen segala bagai yang dah ade dalam hati. sebab bila dah ade dalam hati, maksudnye istimewa lah, sebab tu boleh ada dalam hati, dan kekal lama plak tu dalam hati. bila ingat yang dalam hati, mesti gembira, contohnye ingat yayy dengan izinnya bila sampai umur 30, duit dah cukup, nak beli kereta idaman hati. bila ingat yayy minggu depan mak datang boleh makan segala masakan mak yang ade dalam hati. yayyy. gembira.

bukan semua benda akan berjaya lekat dalam hati, sebab ingat senang ke nak bukak hati dan terima segalanya dan suka segalanya tentang sesuatu/seseorang itu. its not that im hard to be pleased, tapi i guess i naturally select things/people i wanna keep close to my heart, little that i know, that things/people are already here in my heart. one simple thought can make me happy. one simple thanks would make my day. one simple smile can keep me warm. one simple song can keep me glued for days. one simple rojak tepi jalan can make me one happy bunny. as easy as that.

trust me, bila dah ada dalam hati, maknanya anda itu /benda itu betul2 special di mata dan di hati saya. kat profile pon dah tulis, segalanya masih dalam hati dan jantung. sampai bila tak usah tanya, itu bukan urusan kita, itu rahsia Dia.

beat that

2010-03-19T16:38:00.004+08:00

3 tayar pancit dalam masa 2 minggu. arini pancit, esok pancit lagi. sehari dua kali gi kedai tayar. kak nysha cakap, gi mandi bunga bawah jambatan. nasib baik daddy came to the rescue disaat2 memerlukan, kalau tak parah acc bankku. nasib baik tayar pancit masa dah sampai umah perak (1st incident). nasib baik pancit masa kat ofis(2nd incident). nasib baik pancit time abah follow blakang nak gi putrajaya(3rd incident). dalam nasib yang tak brape nak baik, ada jugak nasib yang baik. terima kasih tuhan. terima kasih abah gantikan tayar 3 ketul in one day. terima kasih mak sebab tunggu tgh panas tuka taya. terima kasih pakcik n makcik blanje makan lepas tuka taya. terima kasih adam teman tiya mandi swimming pool. terima kasih amin tukakan tayar kete akak. terima kasehhh semuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. (terharu)

Ahad

2010-03-08T00:14:00.004+08:00

pak gad kat umah sembilan mmg suka cari pasal dgn aku. kadang2 macam annoying sebab sokmo cari pasal dgn aku sejak kejadian kancilku di clamp. bila aku letak luar, pastu jalan kaki masuk, dia tegur, masuk la keter, boleh masuk sampai pukul 11. memang tak la aku da masuk pastu nak kuarkan keter plak kan. muka dah kena marked agaknye. smalam ade nak anta brg siket kat kakak, pastu berlakulah conversation dgn pak gad tu. tapi kali ni klaka. muahahahah

pak gad: mau masuk ka? kereta sudah tuka la
urs truly: pinjam je. keter sy suda pancit.
pak gad: ey apa pasal mau masuk? slalu letak luar juga?
urs truly: malas, kejap je nak anta brg pastu turun balik. mau cepat. dalam hati: (aku letak luar ko suh aku masuk, aku masuk ko suh aku letak luar, nepal ni hish)
pak gad: okay2, i kasi u supplement.
urs truly dalam hati: haaaa? ape supplement? nak buat ape supplement ni?
pak gad: nah, supplement saja. (dia sebut sap-play-men)
urs truly: *rolling eyes* haaa ok. ape2 la. *sambil amik kad visitor dia tuh*

aku pon park keter jap naik tingkat 3, da settle kunci pastu turun balik. tak sampai 3 menet. sebab takde org kat umah. pastu nak kuar tu dia cakap,

pak gad: wau tada sampai supplement. banyak laju.

dalam hati aku macam apejadah wei supplement, aku naif tatau ko cakap ape. tolong sila bagi definisi supplement ko tu. waaaa tak pahammm

pak gad: kasi itu kad la baru sy kasi keluar
urs truly: owh lupa2.

pastu aku tgk kad tu, eh apsal kaler merah, slalu kaler kuning. pastu aku baca dia tulis, kat kad tu, pass 10 menet. baru dapat tangkap, ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo supplement tu sepuluh menet rupenyeeeeeeeeee sambil senyum sorg2 ingat2 sampai toll gate girl kat ldp tergamam 30saat bila aku hulur duit. bahahahahaha

ok. cerita syok sendiri gelak sampai arini.

My Invisible Shoulder.

2010-03-05T08:57:00.003+08:00

Invictus by William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

- have faith. have faith. have faith. and do whatever you think is right for your well-being. come rain, come shine, you know there will always be a shoulder, to cry on, to hold on to. visibly or invisibly.

My Little Friend

2010-03-04T16:08:00.008+08:00

He called last night, sobbed while trying to put the words together, "tiya, adam demaaammm. hidung adam dalahhh" tiya, being such little kids when confronting toddler replied, 'nape dalahh? adam tak minum air ke? ke main panas?'. he replied, " tak. adam demammmm. 3 hali adam tak pegi school. tiya bila nak balik tengok adam demammm? main puppet gajah dengan adamm" terus i feel the need to go back to adam on the spot and main puppet gajah with him. i bought him the elephant puppet at ikea during my last visit there, and bought the gajah because both of us love gajah so much(well, he loves ben10 and ultraman better). cant wait to be with my two nephew dis coming weekend.

Listening to: Trouble is a Friend - Lenka

I, too, am Malay

2010-03-01T10:20:00.008+08:00

Written by former Malaysian Law Minister Zaid Ibrahim . He has first written it in Malay "Saya pun Melayu" and it was so hot that an english translation has now been published. I found this book by chance at mph alamanda (phewphew) after some unsuccessful-hunt(s) at sunway and subang parade. He's the founder of ZICO (zaid ibrahim & co), the largest law firm in Malaysia.

this book basically reveal the hopes and dreams of a humble and successful Malay who sees the future of the Malays in a refreshed democracy. his innermost thoughts were being thrown out here, and with brilliant ideas too. heres are some of the messages the writer tried to deliver in this book:

Encourage more Malays to read and increase their knowledge
Malays will hold fast to the spirit of tolerance and moderation
Malaysia will have a good democracy, where citizens can live without fear
Younger generation of Malays understand that there is no easy path in life to success

all in all, i think the book should be read by everyone in malaysia, despite the title. this book is not 100% about politics, basically it touches on integrity and dignity. malaysia would definitely be different with a good governance, leader with integrity, and cleansed hearts. go read this piece ppl, i believe it will make u pond something out of it.

p/s: this has been on my draft for like 2 months. blergh

Edisi Dateline 3 Hari Lagi

2010-02-22T14:31:00.011+08:00

maka kena update laju2. i present to you hotchikas terbaru dalam list:

haaaa hot kan? ala2 70s. rockstar. suara sedap. kemeja lawa. i like.

tyler grady american idol top24 contestant. my vote goes to you old chap! (bajet duduk amerika nak vote muahahah) sape suka juge sila katakan HOHO!

ok itu saje. bye semua. tcare wherever u are sweet ppl that i love

Realiti : Perasaan Yang Hebat.

2010-02-18T09:21:00.004+08:00

i have to admit, mungkin ini perasaan paling hebat pernah sy rasa. rasa yang masih belum habis. masih belum henti2. with days passing by. perasaan yang dah lama tapi masih sama. tak pernah berubah. and i admit, sy pernah cuba untuk ubah perasaan ini. buang. made some u-turns, even 360 degrees turn, along the way, tried to divert the line called life, yet the feeling is still here. mungkin ive changed some part of my life, to make it more pleasant, tapi rasa ini tak pernah mati. ive read somewhere, perasaan tu anugerah tuhan. kasih sayang tu pon anugerah tuhan. bukan semua orang dapat perasaan begini. and i couldnt thank Him less for this blessing. i know things have changed tremendously but i will never run away from this feeling. ill let it be here. close to my heart. theres no point forcing, sebab the feeling comes naturally, and if it ever wants to go, then let that happen naturally jugak. and i think i am strong because of this feeling i have inside. cause i wanna see people that i love around me happy. eternally. ameen.

Listening to : Little Wonders - Rob Thomas.

I feel it in my fingers, I feel it in my toes.

2010-02-11T09:15:00.010+08:00

I was in Shah Alam last night, went swimming with Mallissa the sista. and o boy o boy o boy(baca macam theodore citer alvin n the chipmunk tu) i can barely finish one single lap. half way thru and as expected ..pancit! but i still love last night session. it feels good to swim again after quite some time. at least im exercising. yayy for me! before i got myself a humble ride! (cant wait!) and i found myself lacking the confident to swim over to 2.0m side. i still swam to that side, but i assured u -no way far from the tebing. hahaha shame on you silly maisarah! gotta gain that confident back anyhoo. and i still smell of chlorine. yikess!

title tu potongan lyrics lagu the troggs- love is all around. td gi keje flyfm deejays nyanyi lagu tu. trus lekat smapai sekarang dllm hati. balik kerja tune to Bfm. layan siots oldies english songs. evergreen. suka suka suka suka suka sampai infiniti and to the stars and beyond.

Gloria c:

Apple Pie ala McD

2010-02-09T09:26:00.004+08:00

entry ini khas untuk ibu mengandung, nurul ayu. sila buat :))

fried apple pie

bahan2:
1. apple - im using big fuji apple (1 and half apple = 6/7 pieces)
2. cinnamon powder - dalam 1 spoonfull
3. nutmeg powder - sikit2 je (kalo tanak pon takpe)
4. butter/marjerin - 1 spoonfull
5. roti wholemeal
6. telur - 1biji
7. serbuk roti/nestum
8. minyak nak goreng, nak paling best olive oil, minyak bese pon takpe.

cara2 buat isi:
1. melt sugar with lil bit of water. kacau2 sampai jadi golden brown, masukkan cinnamon powder kalau nak guna kulit kayu manis tu pon boleh(mcm saya). masukkan butter. pastu masukkan epal. n bia dia lembut for a while. dah siap pastu sejukkan.

cara buat pastry:
1. roti whole meal potong tepi. n role-kan bg nipis.
2. tepi dia tu jgn buang, goreng tanpa minyak and then dry blend = serbuk roti. boleh guna untuk salut pie tu nanti. tp semalam x sempat so sy salut guna nestum.

cara buat pie:
1. letakkan apple yg da masak tadi atas roti yg da nipis tu.
2. pastu cover dgn selapis lagi roti.
3. seal-kan tepi2 tu guna telur. kalau cam lebih2 tu potong, bg kemas.
4. celup dalam telur, kemudian salut dengan nestum/serbuk roti.
5. deep fry dalam olive oil/ minyak vesawit. hahah.
6. dah golden brown angkat. hidang. tadaaaa dah siap. paling best makan dengan aiskrim vanilla.

Occasionally I would sink into despair

2010-01-17T22:16:00.009+08:00

the reason i write less is because i am always chickened out at writing the truths surrounding me. truth be told, i love to keep things to myself, and i dont usually tell even my best friend whats on my mind nor in my heart. I am so used to keep things to myself, i got scolded once for not telling the truth, when at the first place, i dont even know how to tell things to people. its like, u have to read me to know whats inside me. and most of the time, my outer behavior doesnt represent whats on my mind and my heart. and i guess only those close enough to me can read me through my behavior. (well usually i cant help myself being all kiddie and crybaby in front of the people that i love e.g: mom, loved ones)

i am not good with words and im always contemplating why cant i just write everything on the paper or in the blog. i dont know. Maybe time has come for me to write whats on my mind, by having my own diary, personal blog etc. because it feels like there's a part of me drown underworld somewhere, and i cant do anything to grab that part from drowning away.

taken from somewhere i cant remember: One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart you cant utter- James Earl Jones.

one of the things on my things-to-do-before-i-die
backpack trip with the person i would want to grow old with.

there u go another elmo post. tc wherever u are sweet people that i loved.

Inspiration

2010-01-10T22:00:00.005+08:00

I stumped upon on a blog which i found very inspirational. found this blog through his son's blog.
Pak Su Man, you and your blog are such an inspiration to me. i wanna be like him!
This is an article from his blog and i would like to share this one with all of u out there. For full article, click here.

Muslim Etiquette of Talking.

You should talk politely in an intelligible & dignified manner.
You should neither keep the pitch of your voice so low that it is inaudible to the lieterners nor speak so loudly or harshly lest the addressee should be overawed. Because the Holy Qur'an affirms:"and lower your voices because the most ugly & unpleasant voice is the braying of an ass".
You should not injure the sentiments of the aged persons having careworn hearts & of the innocent children.
You should not pass sarcastic remarks againts the others, lest it should create bitterness & you noble acts.
You should not indulge in talking rubbish because it is an evil. Islam strictly forbid & condemn TAUNTING, BACK-BITTING, BLAMING, CURSING & MOCKING of others.
You should speak only whenever the need arise.
Your talk must be beneficial for the audience. It should be based on truth & sincerity. Hurling words carelessly does not look proper.
As you have to render accounts to ALLAH for every word which you speak, you should talk wisely lest you shall be taken to task for your absurd & bareless conversation.
You should neither indulge in self-praise nor boast of your superiority.
You must neither ridicule others nor call them by insulting names. It is a bad habit to swear frequently.
You should not indulge in fruitless discussion with the stubborn ignorant. When you come to the conclusion that a discussion will lead to bitterness, you should offer 'salaam' (peace) politely & depart in a respectable manner, befitting the status & age of your addressee.
You should talk to your elders with reverence (respect).
You must speak affectionately to your juniors (Young ones) and listen attentively.
It is not commendable to interrupt when someone is speaking, again & again. If you wish to reply or ask any question, you should wait till he or she has completed his/her narration.- Your answer or question must be brief & to the point.
You should try to talk in a simple language & ensure that the other person understand what you are trying to say.
And lastly but not least, if u are requested to repeat what you have said, then you must do so without any feeling of resentment on your part. It may be necessary to repeat thrice (3 times) what you have uttered!!

p/s: Pak su man buat sy terharu. dah lama tak terharu begini. bliss :))

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Rise and.. mishap??

2010-01-04T14:58:00.006+08:00

i love my sunday, despite having mild diarrhea n not going to ayu's reception, it was all fun. went to demc to visit noy with arthur. lama gila tak jumpa. and as usual arthur has never failed to make me laugh a lot. sakat2 noy. hahah. fun. lepak kat ward lama gila. gi seksyen tujuh, terserempak alan n kecik. catch up dgn artis. hahah. pastu meet up with bios friends - mung(best freng), sharil(francaise partner) n jiha kat sacc. had a good laugh jugak. bought another book at pkns. their companion made my heart warm a bit. seronok sangat lama tak seronok camni. tiba2 terus nak pindah shah alam sebab bestfriend dah ade kat shah alam. ngehngeh.

mishap: bangun pagi, keluar rumah, jalan 300m nak amek keter dgn beg berbondong2, pastu tesedar kunci keter tak amik. jalan balik sambil cari hp suruh kakak bukak pintu kemudian tesedar hp pon tetinggal. turun bawah balik cr public phone call kakak. trun balik jalan jauh kemudian tersapu baju kaler putih(baru amik semalam)kat keter orang yg kotor. *masa ni nak carut2 dah* kemudian start engine n tgk jam dah pukul 740am.

hari pertama, tahun yang baru, punch card = merah

hummm. mungkin sebab i kufur nikmat. tak bersyukur dan membazir.

Pride and Dignity

2010-01-04T14:03:00.006+08:00

i was browsing through some blogs just now as i was searching for some opinion regarding my intention to change my field. and then i stumped upon this blog - education in malaysia. pretty good one, with critical ideas and lots of infos. i click on the one of popular post(the one with lots of comments and response from readers) entitle "UiTM-World class university?" I guess the writer was being plain honest in writing the post. and i couldnt agree more when the writer commented on how Uitm mis-spent their money on paper advert to show how world class the institution is. the writer also claimed that Uitm grads are less likely to be in his shortlisted list when it comes to a job interview. in easy peasy words, they are unmarketable. that doesnt really catch my reads, because i think, one should make themselves marketable no matter which school they are from, no? only that the interviewer shudnt be skeptical, and treat everyone the same no matter where they are from.

what caught my eyes was the comment left by other readers. some give constructive comment and like wise the unconstructive ones. dah dapat peluang nak kutuk, memang kaw2 la diorg kutuk. i guess honesty is power, no? and that is what they do best. and as usual, the racism faced out when they talk about bumiputra quota and what not. getting wild playing with words. and yeah but please play smart too sebab tiba2 ada orang nak jadi pahlawan, yang takde keris. dont speak out and then left yourself being laugh by others for using such nuisance grammar and pointless facts, yet claiming yourself as Uitm grad. maksud aku, org tgh hentam universiti kau tak world class, students tak pandai cakap english, pastu kau gi jadi bukti apa yang diorg tgh hentam tu, sebab kau komen ikut emosi bukan ikut otak, maka kau kena gelak bertubi2 sebab suspek berjaya di kesan. malu kan?

bukan tak boleh komen dan jadi pahlawan, cuma kau tak boleh jadi oblivious sangat. belasah becakap. aku admit grammar english aku pon tunggang terbalik, tapi selagi boleh, blaja jadi yang lebih baik. ataupon sebelum post komen kat blog yang serious and educational yang pembaca dia dr golongan2 terpelajar, check balik ayat atau mintak opinion orang lain, for the sake of not making yourself look, well, i hate to say this but i have to, stupid.

just my 2cents.

Counting Cows

2009-12-16T23:49:00.004+08:00

2009 is approaching its end in merely couple of weeks time. 1430 hijr is leaving us in couple of days. its all about starting anew and fresh. i am officially 23 last couple of weeks. i miss hiking. i miss nature. i miss fresh air. i miss morning sunshine. i miss stars at night. ive been very reserved this past few months due to work and what not. alasaaan. im an outdoor person. air-cond-ed office does no good to my system. lemau dah. i wish i can go hiking like i did when i was still a student. i miss those time. ummm lacking friend to do such activities is another factor. but yeah, i believe god has his own way of teaching and showing me the world. its all written.

advance hello to 1431/2010. may the almighty high up above grant us all with good health, happiness and all the good things in life. time to save more money, buy more wonderful things, visit more places. my prayers gonna be with all of u sweet people that i love.

another random rants by yours trully, maisarah.

Tiba tiba

2009-12-14T11:01:00.005+08:00

on our way back from penang yesterday, a small accident happen : a car hit the car infront.

dad said: kalau kat kl takyah benti pon, settle sendiri jek. tak jam.
i said: hmmm. betol. settle sendri jek.
dad: macam keter acu la kena langgar. tapi abah yg settle. tak settle sendiri pon. *laugh*

and out of sudden, tears running out of my eyes. i quickly put on my shades to cover things up so that the parents wouldnt see.

flashback.

i was on my way back to putrajaya after sending kak nysya off at lcct. it was already late and i was preety sure i was not on the right way so i decided to make a u-turn and find my way back. and yeah one notorious huge lorry make a u-turn at the same time i was doing it and tak lepas and in one second my kanchil has been crashed. kemek terok. i was so terkejut i couldnt talk at all. im in the middle of ladang kelapa sawit, at 7, alone. i was terrified. the lorry driver left as if hes not wrong. thank god nothing happened to the engine and my kanchil was still running. until today. on my way back, i was just too scared to call dad or my sis so i dialled up one finite hp number over and over again but to no avail. tears were running all over my face. i was crying like a baby. i redialled the number again and again and yet still went to his mailbox. then only i realized, that someone had just flew up north at 3pm on that same day. and then i realized i just went to shahalam during lunch to send some stuff up to this particular someone. i was so blank i couldnt remember a thing. no one ever know bout the incident. until i brought the car back to perak.

ironically, after 6 months i still cried over the incident. Tiba tiba

Now tell me what the hype is all about?

2009-12-09T14:31:00.006+08:00

*amaran: entry ini berbaur elmo. this review based solely on the movie and not the books. the writer has never ever touch the books apetah lagi membaca isi kandungan mereka.

watched new moon with my little sisters last saturday. and yeah like any other girls i was thrilled but not excited. laki ensem mestilah thrill. i dah dapat merasakan sequel memang akan kurang best. maka i wasnt expecting much from u edward cullen. my expectation was like ; i gave u money, now gimme some spice. tetapi malangnya... ah malas nak cakap.

the first part was biasa2. new semester starts, bella met edward at school. bencinta macam biasa. diorg blaja novel Romeo n Juliet by William Shakespears (mata pelajaran english literature mungkin). it was bella's birthday so everyone gave her presents, wishes and what not except for edward.

edward cakap: i have nothing to give u bella. and i feel bad bout it. even ur crush gave u something.
bella replied: i want nothing but ur love edward. u mean everything to me. i dont even care if u dont give me anything. i just want u here with me by my side. i wanna get old with u. together (i can feel u bella)
edward: i am a 109 years old vampire for god sake, bella! and you're just 18!
bella: i dont care and will never ever care bout it. make me a vampire. change me!

setelah berlaku satu kejadian, keluarga cullen merasakan mereka perlu berpindah. jadi edward pon break the heart of bella. bella nak ikut, dia cakap i wanna walk through the days with you eddie. tapi edward tak kasi. besungguh2 tak bagi dia ikut. so bella pon heartbroken tahap tertinggi. dia kawan la dgn Jacon si lelaki serigala. mak aih badan berketul macam makan steroid marijuana, weed dan byk lagi dadah2 lain. everytime Jacob and his comrades keluar kat screen the girls were like woooooowwwwww. well some may like him, macam mallissa, tapi not my type. type saya ermmmmm yang ermm ok abaikan.

jacob pon fall for bella, tapi obviously dalam hati dan jantung bella cuma ada edward. hati dan perasaan tak boleh dipaksa babe. tapi jacob ni baik je. layan si bella yg tgh heartbroken. pastu tiba2 camnentah kisahnya (akibat kurang fokus) si edward ni ingat si bella ni dah mati. so kesan dr pembelajaran Romeo & Juliet beliau pon bertekad untuk bunuh diri dengan berdiri di tgh cahaya matahari. tapi tak berjaya kerana alice pegi bgtau bella hasrat si edward ni. lalu bella pon berlari menyelamatkan edward.

pastu edward tanya bella. would u marry me?

jawapannya akan diketahui pada bulan jun 2010 apabila twilight : eclipse pula muncul di pawagam berhampiran anda.

comment juri: now tell me what the hype is all about?? tak best. for obvious reason, twilight has enormous no of fans all around the world and most of them are teenagers. so what with the i die u die scene? pengaruh tak elok untuk remaja i shall say. tiada klimaks, tiada vampire hisap darah. nasib baik hutan dan sungai nye menarik, maka saya bg markah 3/10. tu pon sebab 3 tu nombor kesukaan saya. kalau tak sy bg 1 jek. to jacob: lu makan steroid eh? will u keep ur shirts on please? to edward, u r so gay, u even sweat glitters. euuwww. hehh

till then, good bye for now c:

Parti Buih // Bachelorette Partayhh

2009-12-07T11:15:00.014+08:00

partner in crime:

muka kenalah jahat kan?

Motif: buat ayu annoyed se annoyed annoyednye dengan berkelakuan annoying sampai ayu berasa menyesal menghadirkan diri ke majlis anjuran kami
Tentatif Program: karaoke di alamanda - surprise party di bilik hotel
Ahli subahat: Jenny dan Dalila

Aktiviti bermula apabila kamu bertemu di Alamanda untuk sesi karaoke. Perlakuan annoyed bermula - memaksa ayu membayar semua 10 lagu karaoke pada malam itu kerana beliau datang lambat sedikit dr kami. muka 2-2 host memang sangat annoying sehingga boleh buat rasa nak tampar laju2. Layanan apatah lagi. Ayu dah cakap: Menyesal datang!! Dalam hati kami : YESSSSS!!!!!

Upacara karok bermula dengan lagu careless whisper George Michael. padahal ingat tang chorus jek. saje nak bg annoyed sbb membazir duit ayu sbb tak nyanyi pon. miahahahah. aktiviti diteruskan dengan lagu avril, chemical romance dan lagu favourite nyanyi sampai 2 kali : JAIHO!! aksi karok mmg annoying dengan niat nak bg ayu annoyed.

in between the songs, sy melarikan diri untuk order pizza. pada masa yg sama, ayu dah cakap lapar2 ajak makan pas karok. kami pon dengan annoying jawab: takyah la makan, makan je ape yg ade kat bilik. setelah selesai karok kami bergerak ke parking. dengan annoyingnye kami berkata: Jumpa kat bilik eh. (padahal tak bg no bilik pon) pastu jalan laju2 pickup pizza. sambil dalila mengajak ayu ke watson untuk melengah2 kan beliau. pastu pecut gi bangi.

bg kad ni je kat dalila suh bg kat ayu bila da sampai hotel

sebaik kami tiba di hotel, ayu msg : tak jadi datang weh tatau jalan. ha cuak! saje ayu ni, blaja kat bangi sampai 5 tahun, tatau jalan plak. bencisss. pastu pujuk gak dia datang. sapa nak makan kek n pizza byk2 itu?? bejaya pujuk. lari2 naik atas prepare apa2 yg patut. pastu dalila msg da sampai and thennnnn

surppppprrriiseeee!!

yayyy. bejaya buat ayu terharu. huahuahuahua. note the buih. parti buih kan. miahahahha. aktiviti diteruskan dengan sesi crowning the princess, tangka gamba, main belon, main buih, makan. patutnye nak main truth or dare. tapi ayu ngantuk plak kan.

sape nak amek upah tiup belon boleh hubungi saya melalui email ye

Pernah Tak?

2009-12-06T13:04:00.007+08:00

pernah tak kau berseorangan dan tiba2 banyak benda terlintas dalam kepala. masa tgh checkout facebook, dan ternampak gamba2 lama masa zaman uitm. it was memorable. zaman yang penuh hype. dan saya masih gembira bila ingat zaman2 itu. rasa diri kerdil dan malu dgn diri sendiri sebab gamba2 tu menunjukkan yang diri ini masih dalam zaman2 gelap. dah tau benda salah, tapi masih buat. i couldnt see things seperti yang sepatutnya i see. i really dont know how to describe this feeling with words. sampai bila nak tutup hati dan biarkan gelap selama2nya, bukan? bila lagi nak jaga diri sendiri? sebab satu hari nanti, kalau itu ketentuan, akan jadi parents kepada anak2 pula. boleh harap ke diri sendiri nak jaga anak2, amanah tuhan? ketam takpela ajar anak dia jalan songsang, sebab dia mmg sejak azali jalan songsang, kau (read: saya) takkan nak ajar anak jalan songsang kan?

belajar dari kesilapan sebab manusia takkan pernah tak buat silap. then only u ll get something out of it. that's what im gonna teach my kids. sebab bila buat silap, kamu akan sakit. sebab mummy rotan (lawak ss). hehh :)

till then, goodbye for now c:

Will You?

2009-12-02T16:17:00.003+08:00

Spongebob: What do you usually do when I'm gone?
Patrick: Wait for you to come back.

awwww. patrick u r so sweet.

To YOU

2009-11-24T10:05:00.012+08:00

ive made myself promised not to in any way convey my emotion here. but this time around its just so hard to keep it to myself. and yet im lost for words to write those emotion out. I know i should be happy instead of being silly crying for another goodbye. thus, words down here are for me to ponder upon and for u to hold on tight to. i promise ill always be there for u.

Goodbye is not forever
It is definitely not the end
It simply means I'll miss you
until we meet again.